trying, but losing perspective!!
my boss says:
"all you need to do is compartmentalize. like bill clinton. that's what kept him from totally ruining his presidency during the whole lewinsky thing. compartmentalize."
this = in response to my answer to her question of "How are you doing?" which was: "I am freaking out. I am always stressed because I can't think about anything else except for my thesis and the hoops I"m jumping through for the federal government's medical and security clearances."
i should just be super happy that i'm so close to the end of this wonderful journey that has been higher education, right?? i mean in the whole fucking scheme of things, i've barely got anything left, and then i'm THERE. but i'm so exhausted, being my only own cheerleader here to get it done, to feel like there's nothing keeping me going except me saying, "yeah sure, hopefully that medical clearance will come through, the federal government WON'T have a problem with your anorexia and cutting and burning, you'll pass!!" .... god that's exhausting.
and i have no hypothesis to keep my thesis going anymore. eff.
"all you need to do is compartmentalize. like bill clinton. that's what kept him from totally ruining his presidency during the whole lewinsky thing. compartmentalize."
this = in response to my answer to her question of "How are you doing?" which was: "I am freaking out. I am always stressed because I can't think about anything else except for my thesis and the hoops I"m jumping through for the federal government's medical and security clearances."
i should just be super happy that i'm so close to the end of this wonderful journey that has been higher education, right?? i mean in the whole fucking scheme of things, i've barely got anything left, and then i'm THERE. but i'm so exhausted, being my only own cheerleader here to get it done, to feel like there's nothing keeping me going except me saying, "yeah sure, hopefully that medical clearance will come through, the federal government WON'T have a problem with your anorexia and cutting and burning, you'll pass!!" .... god that's exhausting.
and i have no hypothesis to keep my thesis going anymore. eff.