every now and then
i realize HOLY CRAP!!!!! i'm going to have a BABY!!!!!!
like....i logically know i'm pregnant. i logically know there is a baby in there. i can physically feel him kicking and rolling around. i can physically see myself getting larger. but i REALLY have not wrapped my brain around the idea that i am currently creating a wee little person, and in 3 months or so, he will be OUT here. i will have a CHILD. its scary, exciting, and CRAZY all at the same time. am i ready? will i totally mess this up? are there a million things i should have done before i got pregnant? will me and my husband make a good parent team? will our marriage stay happy and whole through child raising? will my little boy stay healthy? will he grow up to be a good person?
i have a billion new worries and questions now that i'm starting to worry less about the pregnancy. its almost over! im nearly 26 weeks pregnant. in about 14 weeks, i will have a BABY. 14 weeks. that is NO TIME. i remember when i found out i was preggo, how fast i got to 14 weeks. that FLEW.
i havent decorated my nursery. i dont even have a color picked out. my mom and sister havent started planning my baby shower. i havent bought clothes. I DONT KNOW HOW TO CHANGE A DIAPER. i havent decided if i want to try water birth or go epidural. i havent gone to (or signed up for!) any birth classes. i havent researched how to start off breastfeeding the right way so it doesnt suck and make me quit. I ONLY HAVE 3 MONTHS!!!!!!
not to mention......labor. and delivery. holy crap. i'm so not ready.
like....i logically know i'm pregnant. i logically know there is a baby in there. i can physically feel him kicking and rolling around. i can physically see myself getting larger. but i REALLY have not wrapped my brain around the idea that i am currently creating a wee little person, and in 3 months or so, he will be OUT here. i will have a CHILD. its scary, exciting, and CRAZY all at the same time. am i ready? will i totally mess this up? are there a million things i should have done before i got pregnant? will me and my husband make a good parent team? will our marriage stay happy and whole through child raising? will my little boy stay healthy? will he grow up to be a good person?
i have a billion new worries and questions now that i'm starting to worry less about the pregnancy. its almost over! im nearly 26 weeks pregnant. in about 14 weeks, i will have a BABY. 14 weeks. that is NO TIME. i remember when i found out i was preggo, how fast i got to 14 weeks. that FLEW.
i havent decorated my nursery. i dont even have a color picked out. my mom and sister havent started planning my baby shower. i havent bought clothes. I DONT KNOW HOW TO CHANGE A DIAPER. i havent decided if i want to try water birth or go epidural. i havent gone to (or signed up for!) any birth classes. i havent researched how to start off breastfeeding the right way so it doesnt suck and make me quit. I ONLY HAVE 3 MONTHS!!!!!!
not to mention......labor. and delivery. holy crap. i'm so not ready.