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i was there when the sky fell into your chicken soup, splitting your matzah balls and spilling steaming broth into your lap. i was there when the clouds fell and it rained cotton for years. i was there when the full truths and promises were handed blade first to their owners and ended up sticking into innocent carotids.
you hear me? i was there.
i was there when the honest were cruelly punished and thrones were raised to honor the delinquents. i was there when the ears of the young and blameless were cracked and sent bleeding into the snow. i was there when the feet of the children were sent sprinting across the endless deserts of hot coals for the rest of their lives.
you hear me? i was there.
i was there when all the trees in the forest fell and the resounding crash broke the sound barrier even though no one was around to hear it. i was there when all the ribbons came undone and soft golden hair fell out of bleeding scalps onto scorched shoulders. i was there when genetics came undone and untouched palms leaked out of razor sharp wounds into the snow.
you hear me? i was there.
i was there when the hugs were rescinded and the kisses were revoked. i was there when every possible irony was twisted and unfolded. i was there when my intelligence was underestimated and my heart discounted.
you hear me?
I WAS THERE.
i was there when you called him a liar, when you lied yourself and said she banged down the door to see me.
WHERE WAS I? when she banged down the door to see me?
WHERE WAS I? when they ever cared about what went on in my life?
WHERE WAS I? when these fallacies became truths?
WHERE WAS I? WHERE WAS I?
i was there when my life crashed and burned around me. i was there when my blood decided i wasnt good enough. i was there when apologies were refused, invitations ignored. i was there when all the green ran out and the blood drained from the trees, dripping chlorophyll and dollar signs all over my bedroom floor.
you hear me?
i was there.
im a living breathing thinking entity in my own right. no one ever told me what i should believe, how i should think, whom i should love. and i was there when you accused them of corrupting me.
i.
was.
there.
you hear me? i was there.
i was there when the honest were cruelly punished and thrones were raised to honor the delinquents. i was there when the ears of the young and blameless were cracked and sent bleeding into the snow. i was there when the feet of the children were sent sprinting across the endless deserts of hot coals for the rest of their lives.
you hear me? i was there.
i was there when all the trees in the forest fell and the resounding crash broke the sound barrier even though no one was around to hear it. i was there when all the ribbons came undone and soft golden hair fell out of bleeding scalps onto scorched shoulders. i was there when genetics came undone and untouched palms leaked out of razor sharp wounds into the snow.
you hear me? i was there.
i was there when the hugs were rescinded and the kisses were revoked. i was there when every possible irony was twisted and unfolded. i was there when my intelligence was underestimated and my heart discounted.
you hear me?
I WAS THERE.
i was there when you called him a liar, when you lied yourself and said she banged down the door to see me.
WHERE WAS I? when she banged down the door to see me?
WHERE WAS I? when they ever cared about what went on in my life?
WHERE WAS I? when these fallacies became truths?
WHERE WAS I? WHERE WAS I?
i was there when my life crashed and burned around me. i was there when my blood decided i wasnt good enough. i was there when apologies were refused, invitations ignored. i was there when all the green ran out and the blood drained from the trees, dripping chlorophyll and dollar signs all over my bedroom floor.
you hear me?
i was there.
im a living breathing thinking entity in my own right. no one ever told me what i should believe, how i should think, whom i should love. and i was there when you accused them of corrupting me.
i.
was.
there.