There needs to be more happiness.

[blueyedchik104]

Wednesday night I heard the saddest news of my life. My cousin by marriage, only 33, who was diagnosed with some sort of cancer only about 3 weeks ago died. He was 33!! That is sooo young. He cant even be there to see his baby girl turn one years old. Its one of the saddest things ever. Today was his viewing, tomorrow is the actual funeral. I have never seen a more crowded funeral home. There were so many people there. He was a singer in a band and they had some of his performances playing on a tv. I think every time I saw Brian he had a hat on. His most current hat that he always wore, was leaning up against all his pictures. I almost lost it when I saw his hat. I wasnt as close with Brian as other cousins, but I still knew him. I had conversations with him, I played soccer with him at erics grad party and the family reunions. He loved kids soo much and hes not even going to be able to see his own daughter grow up. This whole thing is making me realize you dont really know how much time there is. Spend each moment as happy as you can be, dont sweat the small stuff and be with the people you love & care about as much as possible. This is a horrible tragedy and doesnt even seem real. I hope people I care about know that I love them. I really need some happiness in my life right now. It seems like there is only bad news or people taking things/others for granted.
*RIP*
4/11/73 Brian 4/26/06

Anyway, I saw Stick it tonight with some people. It was pretty good, I had fun, It took my mind off things for 2 hours. I got my dress for quincineara/prom...its not exactly what I expected..I'm not very happy about that either..ohh well, we'll see how things go.

<3
Andrea