Dreams
"Dreams are our world turned upside down. Gravity, logic, time rendered meaningless. The world of dreams is not our world. Although in the dead of night, it tempts and deceives. This is what makes dreams so dangerous." - Everwood
Have you ever dreamed that dream where your chest is so heavy it becomes a foreign, invasive piece that doesn't belong to you? You jolt awake in a sweat breathing quick, shallow, short breaths. In this panic you claw at the sheets covering your chest, trying to free it from anything that could be laboring your breath so. In the same second you... Stop. The heaviness, you realize, is coming from deep inside that cavity in your chest ... the cavity that grows larger everytime you lose that which you didn't want to let go of.
I didn't know the worry would be nonstop, every minute, of every hour, of every day I'm awake... let alone evident in every dream. When you're pregnant your tummy should be translucent so you can see the baby whenever you start to worry to know baby's okay. I think God made a mistake by not making that happen during pregnancy... but perhaps it wasn't at all... perhaps it's just another test of faith... faith that his will, will indeed be done.
It's hard to have so much faith when you've been bleeding though.
Have you ever dreamed that dream where your chest is so heavy it becomes a foreign, invasive piece that doesn't belong to you? You jolt awake in a sweat breathing quick, shallow, short breaths. In this panic you claw at the sheets covering your chest, trying to free it from anything that could be laboring your breath so. In the same second you... Stop. The heaviness, you realize, is coming from deep inside that cavity in your chest ... the cavity that grows larger everytime you lose that which you didn't want to let go of.
I didn't know the worry would be nonstop, every minute, of every hour, of every day I'm awake... let alone evident in every dream. When you're pregnant your tummy should be translucent so you can see the baby whenever you start to worry to know baby's okay. I think God made a mistake by not making that happen during pregnancy... but perhaps it wasn't at all... perhaps it's just another test of faith... faith that his will, will indeed be done.
It's hard to have so much faith when you've been bleeding though.