Tidal Waves???
Sean Passed away a few days ago...It saddens my heart to think of the last conversation we had...to think I will never see him again... and yet I still havent cried, not once...maybe it hasnt hit yet. Having driven the two hours to Stanford Hospital every day for a few weeks, every morning i wake up and its like subconciously prepare myself for the 2 hr. drive to go see him, i have even picked up the phone to call his cell phone...sometimes i call just to hear his voicemail..."Hey this is Sean, I'll call when I'm out, love to all...peace..." It sux not believing in heaven or hell, most christians have the consolation of beliving that they will reunite someday with their departed love ones...but not me... The service is Sunday Feb. 20....I'm sure I'll cry that day...My mom is speaking and doing the whole service, I know she's gunna weep hella hardcore, it truly tears me up when she cries...
Lately I've been wanting to go to Arkansas, My homie DeAnna is breaking it off with Kierra and going back there, I'm gunna go fly out there in a few weeks or so...
The Band is doing ok, our guitarist is starting to freak out because she wants to sleep with me, and we all know i'm married to Victoria (aka tori) so then she thought it would appeal to me more to sleep with tori and myself, but i cant share...(I'm a bitch.)She showed me her tits yesterday and i freaked on her, tori was right there and i was like "what the fuck!" tori didnt mind (grrrr.) but i sure as hell did. I go to therapy twice a week because i have an honesty problem, i used to tell lies to the women i'd date, keeping secrets for years that I'm seeing multible partners, and i hurt so many awesome chicks and lost a very close friend to me because of it,(i just downloaded "Over and Over" if you ever feel the need to call, you know who you are.) because i had to have more than one person telling me they loved me to feel alive. after years of spinning lies, it changed who i was, i had to essentially become two different people...that does something to a person...i still always feel like im not being completely honest even when i am...and seeing another hot chicks tits made me feel so dishonest and uncomfortable, regardless that Victoria was there.
DeAnna just poured butane all over me... i knew i shouldnt have given her meth...clumbsy ass! Its close to one in the morning and she feels the need to go hotubbing right now... i will honor her request and accompany her...maybe Vicki will come, probably not cause she is entertaining Kierra right now (we have to seperate them at the momment.)
DeAnna: Booya bitch, dont touch my chicken selects!!! I took my pants off!!!Ass and Titties (Biggg BoOTie Bytchez!) _super mario bros. theme_
Lately I've been wanting to go to Arkansas, My homie DeAnna is breaking it off with Kierra and going back there, I'm gunna go fly out there in a few weeks or so...
The Band is doing ok, our guitarist is starting to freak out because she wants to sleep with me, and we all know i'm married to Victoria (aka tori) so then she thought it would appeal to me more to sleep with tori and myself, but i cant share...(I'm a bitch.)She showed me her tits yesterday and i freaked on her, tori was right there and i was like "what the fuck!" tori didnt mind (grrrr.) but i sure as hell did. I go to therapy twice a week because i have an honesty problem, i used to tell lies to the women i'd date, keeping secrets for years that I'm seeing multible partners, and i hurt so many awesome chicks and lost a very close friend to me because of it,(i just downloaded "Over and Over" if you ever feel the need to call, you know who you are.) because i had to have more than one person telling me they loved me to feel alive. after years of spinning lies, it changed who i was, i had to essentially become two different people...that does something to a person...i still always feel like im not being completely honest even when i am...and seeing another hot chicks tits made me feel so dishonest and uncomfortable, regardless that Victoria was there.
DeAnna just poured butane all over me... i knew i shouldnt have given her meth...clumbsy ass! Its close to one in the morning and she feels the need to go hotubbing right now... i will honor her request and accompany her...maybe Vicki will come, probably not cause she is entertaining Kierra right now (we have to seperate them at the momment.)
DeAnna: Booya bitch, dont touch my chicken selects!!! I took my pants off!!!Ass and Titties (Biggg BoOTie Bytchez!) _super mario bros. theme_