same shit different day is me....

[bluerabbit62]

my life is on repeat.
only new things happen every once and a while.
like seeing kat.
that needs to change.
i need to organize my life.
but every time i try it doesnt work some one will change the plans.
or just not fallow them.
so i give up and let the person that has controll of me at that time tell me what to do.
but its okay i just adapt. and i am happy
its not what i wanna do. but i am happy. or at least i believe i am.
believe i am.
i think i am.
i should be.
i wanna be.
but just sometimes im not.
and i take this unhappyness and hide it
just like i shove it in my pocket.
and when no one is looking, i look at my unhappyness untill someone comes by and then i shove it in my pocket really quick.
well time to go to work. and i am happy.
i am happy.
i believe i am.
i think i am.
i should be.
i wanna be.
i am.
with my pocket full of guilt.
and my mind blank and in bliss.
and i am blindly happy