This One Last Time
Title: This One Last Time
Pairing: YooSu
Genre: Angst, Drama, Romance
Rating: Pg-13
Length: Oneshot (poem)
Summary: A love he wanted to hold just this one last time
This One Last Time
Could it be that I was too afraid?
Could it be that I was too scared?
Could it be that I was too terrified?
Of losing this sad love,
Of losing this painful memories,
Of losing this heart to anyone else other than you?
And yet you did not even know how painful it was to have watching you and the other with my teary eyes.
How could you?
You had him by your side and still you were here next to me.
How could you?
You had his hand to hold you and still you hold mine with yours.
How could you?
You had his love to live and still you made me to love you like this.
Could you see me?
Trembling with frets,
Shaking with fears,
Quivering with vexes,
As your silhouette strode with grace towards me?
How could you?
Did you even hear the breaking sound of my heart?
It’s too loud that left me dumbfounded for words,
It’s too loud that left me trembled with fearsome waves,
It’s too much to the point that I could no longer feel my beating heart,
It’s too much to the point that I could no longer feel my feet on this ground.
I shook my weakening defences off,
Trying all my might not to fall deeper than ever,
With that I turned away and my silent tears fell,
Leaving the tender you,
Pretending I was never in loved with you,
And yet the warmth of your arms around me sent me a familiar heartache.
How could you?
Did you even know how painful it was to have you so close to me and yet so distant from my reach?
How could you?
Did you even know how hurtful it was to gaze into your beautiful eyes and yet doing nothing to wipe away the tears that carelessly blemished your flawless face?
The tears in your eyes asked me into a stop,
The tears in your eyes pleaded me into a halt,
The tears in your eyes requested me into a stay,
The tears in your eyes demanded me into a dwell,
And I gazed away as I held my solemn tears just barely.
“JunSu-ah...”
Did you think I never knew?
You could only look at him and never me.
Did you think I never knew?
Your tears as your apology,
Of having breaking my heart,
Of having shattering my soul,
Of having yourself for me to love,
Did you think I never knew?
I closed my eyes, a sad smile on my lips,
With that I bid you a goodbye,
With that I sent you away,
With that I graved this love deep inside my heart,
With that I buried myself in our memories.
Goodbye Kim JunSu,
Goodbye my love,
And just let me love you for this one last time.
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.
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Goodbye Park YooChun,
Goodbye my love,
If,
If only you wait for me just this one last time...