Christmas already
I can belive that Christmas is only 17 days away.It just dont seem like another year has gone by that quick. Me and Eliott have been married for two years now and that dont seem real either. everything has been going really good.
The doctor gave me the medicine that is suppose to get my periods back to normal and help me get better. Its really hard seeing all these babies around and it really bothers me especially when they dont take care of them at all. Im hoping that the medicine worked this month, We have been trying for a year and I dont think I can take anymore bad news. Everyone keeps sayin you will have one when its your time to have one but they didnt like hearing that when they were in my shoes. They didnt want to hear it at all but Now that they have one they think its ok to say it to me when it hurt thier feelings to hear it from other ppl. It hurts me when ppl say well when are you going to finally have one and they dont even know what i have been through at all. And his mom asks all the time and I have to re-explain everything everytime we are over there. I get so upset when I leave there that I dont even like to go over there anymore. I like to just stay home cause it gets harder everytime I go somewhere and it really hurts when I see girls pregnant and they arent even married, they do things backwards and Im married and Im having all the trouble and im sick of it. I know I shouldnt feel this way cuz God dont want me to feel this way but Its really hard. harder than what ppl think. I guess I will know in a couple weeks if the medicine works but now Im scared to even take a test cause Im afraid it will be negative and I dont know if I can take that. Eliott has been so Helpful and understanding. hes always telling me to keep faith in God which I am. I wont ever give up on God. But its great to have a husband that supports me and helps me. Well I gotta go
The doctor gave me the medicine that is suppose to get my periods back to normal and help me get better. Its really hard seeing all these babies around and it really bothers me especially when they dont take care of them at all. Im hoping that the medicine worked this month, We have been trying for a year and I dont think I can take anymore bad news. Everyone keeps sayin you will have one when its your time to have one but they didnt like hearing that when they were in my shoes. They didnt want to hear it at all but Now that they have one they think its ok to say it to me when it hurt thier feelings to hear it from other ppl. It hurts me when ppl say well when are you going to finally have one and they dont even know what i have been through at all. And his mom asks all the time and I have to re-explain everything everytime we are over there. I get so upset when I leave there that I dont even like to go over there anymore. I like to just stay home cause it gets harder everytime I go somewhere and it really hurts when I see girls pregnant and they arent even married, they do things backwards and Im married and Im having all the trouble and im sick of it. I know I shouldnt feel this way cuz God dont want me to feel this way but Its really hard. harder than what ppl think. I guess I will know in a couple weeks if the medicine works but now Im scared to even take a test cause Im afraid it will be negative and I dont know if I can take that. Eliott has been so Helpful and understanding. hes always telling me to keep faith in God which I am. I wont ever give up on God. But its great to have a husband that supports me and helps me. Well I gotta go