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[bluepaperflower]

home is disappointing.
i lost myself two years ago.
i lost my old writings.
i should cut down my caloric intake;
i should go to sleep hungry and wake up with my guts knotted up.
i need to start packing.
i am excited for august.
i do not trust girls.
i do not trust myself.

my belly hurts.

i think i'm going to pull away for a while.
i just want to put my head down and run to august.

someone calm me down.