So here we go again...
So yeah My date with Alen went very well. On Thursday night we hung out from like 9:30pm-4:00am, he's very cute and we have a lot in common, I like him a lot! Friday night he took me out to a movie we saw Coraline it was a great movie, loved it. We talked a bit then split ways, I regret not kissing him but I'm so shy when I first date or get to know someone. He even hinted around, "I'm a fan of PDA." I know that was a hint but it flew right over my head, I hope that doesn't screw up my chances with him. I seem to screw things up when I'm not myself but I can't help it, it's my defense. I have this huge guard up around me because I always get hurt, I'm sick of being hurt. I really want a boyfriend but I know you have to date before you're officially girlfriend and boyfriend. I just hate the suspense of the waiting game not fun for me. It always makes me sad and blah like life is over ha ha ha. Anyways after Alen left I met the girls for drinks at this bar it was ghetto but fun. I got drunk as hell and I was dancing all crazy I made out with some guy he had bad breath gross! I drove back to Izzys and Caseys I don't even remember the drive. I got high and passed out on the couch good times. So now I just finished reading the paper, I'm gonna do some homework, clean my room, workout, maybe go to Izzys later on and watch MST3 and try hard not to think of Alan and the ways I screw up everything.
P.S. He makes me want to be a better person even though we've only met like 2x it's rare to find someone like that.
P.P.S. I finally was able to listen to a Smashing Pumpkins song after all this long while.
P.S. He makes me want to be a better person even though we've only met like 2x it's rare to find someone like that.
P.P.S. I finally was able to listen to a Smashing Pumpkins song after all this long while.