I've been sitting here staring at the open "Post an Entry" window for about 20 minutes...listening to trucks and cars rolling through the intersection outside...listening to the kids bicker down the hall...listening to a dog barking somewhere on the next street...listening to one of the neighbors' boys shooting hoops in their driveway - the "twang ( Read more... )

Still feeling very empty. For some reason, just laying to rest my grandfather makes me feel like my childhood never existed.

I haven't cried yet today, so that's a start. The two previous days were tough. Wednesday we were too busy with visitors and planning services to really think about why we were doing all this. It ran me over on ( Read more... )

I'm trying to get myself grounded again. Not "grounded" as in "I broke the neighbor's car window with a baseball and then denied it." "Grounded" as in being "in the world" again...no longer viewing it as a disinterested observer....no longer winging it mentally or emotionally. It's odd how I went from being emotionally overwhelmed for more than a ( Read more... )