sun and wind
twilight falls in arcata.
the elk burgers are done. i take them off the grill. one of the women my mom babysits for, hunts. she gives my mom a whole bunch of elk meat every year after her annual hunting trip to montana. my mom doesn't like elk, so she gave some to me. i'll ask her for more. i like it.
we're down to using quarters for food. ah well. things will get better soon.
tending the BBQ, i hear the kids across the parking lot playing. they are drumming loudly and playing a guitar. inside, eros is finally starting to spin music again after setting up his DJ stuff. i am struck by the similarity. both are totally absorbed in their play.
i went to the noon women's NA meeting today. it was very good. lots of women. we feel free to discuss whatever we want, without worrying about what the men think.
i asked my sponsor about going to the NA convention at the end of march. if i can get a ride and a room to share, i will absolutely go. my recovery looms large in my life right now, and it feels great.
today i went for a 1.5 hour walk through the ma'lel dunes and out along the beach. at the farthest point, i dunked myself in the cold, cold ocean three times, asking again to be cleansed and renewed, born again in the service of Love and the Goddess. i walked back along the shore with the sun shining in my face.
today was the day i finally found the path through the dwarf sitka coastal forest at Ma'Lel. you have to go a few yards towards the Gun Club to find it. i've been here a year and i've finally figured it out. it was beautiful, mysterious -- involving clambering up forest slopes and weaving through the huckleberry bushes.
i am in search of eel river jade. i want to wear a piece over my heart chakra, to reawaken it and connect me to this place. i want to live on local food, make my home-ground bread with local organic butter, and continue to feel the wind and sun in my hair as often as possible.
and i'm incredibly grateful to be able to snuggle with my sweetie.
the elk burgers are done. i take them off the grill. one of the women my mom babysits for, hunts. she gives my mom a whole bunch of elk meat every year after her annual hunting trip to montana. my mom doesn't like elk, so she gave some to me. i'll ask her for more. i like it.
we're down to using quarters for food. ah well. things will get better soon.
tending the BBQ, i hear the kids across the parking lot playing. they are drumming loudly and playing a guitar. inside, eros is finally starting to spin music again after setting up his DJ stuff. i am struck by the similarity. both are totally absorbed in their play.
i went to the noon women's NA meeting today. it was very good. lots of women. we feel free to discuss whatever we want, without worrying about what the men think.
i asked my sponsor about going to the NA convention at the end of march. if i can get a ride and a room to share, i will absolutely go. my recovery looms large in my life right now, and it feels great.
today i went for a 1.5 hour walk through the ma'lel dunes and out along the beach. at the farthest point, i dunked myself in the cold, cold ocean three times, asking again to be cleansed and renewed, born again in the service of Love and the Goddess. i walked back along the shore with the sun shining in my face.
today was the day i finally found the path through the dwarf sitka coastal forest at Ma'Lel. you have to go a few yards towards the Gun Club to find it. i've been here a year and i've finally figured it out. it was beautiful, mysterious -- involving clambering up forest slopes and weaving through the huckleberry bushes.
i am in search of eel river jade. i want to wear a piece over my heart chakra, to reawaken it and connect me to this place. i want to live on local food, make my home-ground bread with local organic butter, and continue to feel the wind and sun in my hair as often as possible.
and i'm incredibly grateful to be able to snuggle with my sweetie.