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well, LJ is still being a dumb hole to me. So I've been having trouble logging on. Here is a short list of some of the (moderately)interesting things that I did last week.
I got to meet the other side of T's family. This side was much nicer, they were all so friendly, we stayed in a camper at her Aunt's house.Her aunt owns an organic farm and I got to take home a bunch of eggs. My feet dangled off the end of the bed and my elbows kept slamming into the little cupboards above the bed. T laughed. I tickled her. We stayed up till three in the morning talking like Samuel.L.Jackson.
I drank champagne for the fist time. I can't help but think it's over rated, but then again I'm mostly straight edge anyway so I find all alcohol over rated. Not that it's bad, it's just not my thing. and i'm tired of people asking me why I don't drink. Because a lot of it is because of my fathers alcoholism, and that's not something that I like to talk about.
T and I were going to go see Paranormal activity 3 but then I screwed something up and she got mad at me, and then we made up and trolled the mall for a couple of hours. Neither of us apologized but she did thank me for putting up with her and not getting personally offended when she got all pissy. We ended up driving and singing along and making up words to obnoxious party songs on the radio.
I broke through some writers bock and wrote something that is getting quite positive responses. Yay! conversely though, every time I feel like I write something of value I see all of my draw backs, and flaws in my writing style as well, and I feel like I'll never be as good as I want to be.
I tried to gain weight in order to give blood today. The minumum weight is 110 pounds. I binged for a week straight and I only just got above 110, and then I couldn't give blood anyway. I am very self conscious about my build sometimes. Most of the time I'm fine with it, but I'm getting tired of people calling me a string bean. I am slightly worried about my health as well, because my weight has gotten low enough that I've skipped a couple months worth of periods.
Sometimes you just need to listen to iggy pop and chill out don't you? at least I do.
I felt really proud of myself the other day when I realized how long I've gone without any form of self injuring. No cutting, no burning, no purging. I gave myself a big pat on the back. It is true that I have stated scratching and picking again, but I think I've gotten that under control, so I'm counting it as a victory. I've come to believe that I'm just pre disposed to self destructive behavior.But that doesn't mean that I can't fight it.
"Because nerds like us are allowed to be unironically enthusiastic about stuff. We don’t have to be like, ‘Oh yeah that purse is okay’ or like, ‘Yeah, I like that band’s early stuff.’ Nerds are allowed to love stuff, like jump-up-and-down-in-the-chair-can’t-control-yourself-love it. When people call people nerds, mostly what they are saying is, ‘You like stuff’, which is just not a good insult at all, like ‘You are too enthusiastic about the miracle of human consciousness’."-- John Green. I just felt like this is something some of you might enjoy.