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Today sucked. thats the only word for it. i went to school and got the work that i was missing. they said since i was doing so "well", i may be able to come back after christmas break. i love how everyone thinks im doing okay, but really i am sinking lower and lower into the infinite blackness. everyone said that i looked good.. and really stressed that point. my friend britney was asking everybody, "doesn't she look really good? im for real, she really looks good." maybe because ive lost ten pounds, but i am still hideous.
"just give me medicine, prescribe me anything. just knock me out and walk me through that door. cause i have no desire to see through my own eyes anymore."
so now that im in rehab, my pychiatrist (who im no longer seeing: i guess he gave up) took me off all of my meds. cold turkey. needless to say i have no trouble crying anymore. i am very emotional when it comes to other people and their situations, but when i think of my own, i only feel apathetic and indifferent.
peace.out.
"just give me medicine, prescribe me anything. just knock me out and walk me through that door. cause i have no desire to see through my own eyes anymore."
so now that im in rehab, my pychiatrist (who im no longer seeing: i guess he gave up) took me off all of my meds. cold turkey. needless to say i have no trouble crying anymore. i am very emotional when it comes to other people and their situations, but when i think of my own, i only feel apathetic and indifferent.
peace.out.