Alert called off.
Since my last post I've gotten better. Not as worried or upset. Granted I'm still in a little bit of a hole, but not one I can't dig out of. The only thing that worries me now is Kenny. He's not doing so well. With us and with school. It's amazing how strong women can be and how much men truly depend on them. I guess that's somewhat of a feminist bra-burning statement, but I find it to be somewhat true. It could be because of the great support system women have amoungst themselves. Not that men don't have bonding, but the ammount of comfort and sympathy seems to be less. Saying "yea dude, I got your back." doesn't really do justice to my relationship with my girlfriends. I'd be more like "Anyone fucks with you and I'm all over that bitch like Joan Crawford on a martini." And god help the man that wrongs a woman and has to face their friends. Needless to say I think men can have it harder in relationships.
So all is well. I saw all my friends. Who apparently miss me. Yay! :) It really made me miss everything. But I'm content now. I'm kinda moving in nicely to my new life. Friends and routine and all. We're practically half-way through the year and things are moving along ok. Things are laying out pretty ok. I've kinda come to the conclusion that things will never really go back to the way they used to be, and I can look foreward to a new start in college, on my own, a new life. I lvoe everything about my old life, but it's silly to fear change. I just hope I don't forget everything that's happened to me. I loved too much of it to want to forget. And I hope everyone else gets what they want in life, and are happy. It's all uphill from here....till 30. That's the top of the mountain.
So all is well. I saw all my friends. Who apparently miss me. Yay! :) It really made me miss everything. But I'm content now. I'm kinda moving in nicely to my new life. Friends and routine and all. We're practically half-way through the year and things are moving along ok. Things are laying out pretty ok. I've kinda come to the conclusion that things will never really go back to the way they used to be, and I can look foreward to a new start in college, on my own, a new life. I lvoe everything about my old life, but it's silly to fear change. I just hope I don't forget everything that's happened to me. I loved too much of it to want to forget. And I hope everyone else gets what they want in life, and are happy. It's all uphill from here....till 30. That's the top of the mountain.