Time Flies...
I don't know who even reads livejournal entries anymore, but I will update nonetheless.
You know how one day you'll think how things couldn't get any more chaotic and confusing, and then you wake up one day and don't know how your life has gotten into complete dissarray? I feel like I've lost part of my mind this semester. Granted, turning 21 in February couldn't have helped, but I've kind of been a little bit chaotic for a while now. I seem to have lost all regard for my obligations in life and only really do what I must do to get by. I feel like I am desperately seeking some sort of stimulation, but the ways I'm going about it are more destructive productive. Hmmm... The weird thing is that I'm not really unhappy, but I'm not quite happy either. I feel like that's the place I've been in for a while, but recently I've been trying to change that with littel jolts that eventually come crashing down. I never really know what to write in this thing, because there's a whole lot spinning around in my head, but I can't seem to organize it into actual processed thoughts that I can type out. I think it would be wise of me to get out of Boston for a little while. The only time I've left since January was to go to a funeral a few weekends ago. Basically, this has been a really long semester that has flown by, and I'm kind of having a great deal of anxiety over it. The senior showcase is coming up within the next week or so, and I've already decided that I don't think I can go to it because I'll probably hyperventilate when I realize that this is the last class before mine. Holy crap. People don't seem to understand my obsession with the passage of time. To put it in perspective for you, I remember on my 7th birthday, I was lying on the floor of the living room screaming and crying because it was my birthday and I saw my childhood fleeting past me. So, as you can see, it's kind of been a life long thing. Being a senior in college is not cool. I'm not looking forward to it. However, one cool development about next year: I've gotten the ok from my teachers to do a double emphasis in acting and directing. So that's cool. Anyway...
You know how one day you'll think how things couldn't get any more chaotic and confusing, and then you wake up one day and don't know how your life has gotten into complete dissarray? I feel like I've lost part of my mind this semester. Granted, turning 21 in February couldn't have helped, but I've kind of been a little bit chaotic for a while now. I seem to have lost all regard for my obligations in life and only really do what I must do to get by. I feel like I am desperately seeking some sort of stimulation, but the ways I'm going about it are more destructive productive. Hmmm... The weird thing is that I'm not really unhappy, but I'm not quite happy either. I feel like that's the place I've been in for a while, but recently I've been trying to change that with littel jolts that eventually come crashing down. I never really know what to write in this thing, because there's a whole lot spinning around in my head, but I can't seem to organize it into actual processed thoughts that I can type out. I think it would be wise of me to get out of Boston for a little while. The only time I've left since January was to go to a funeral a few weekends ago. Basically, this has been a really long semester that has flown by, and I'm kind of having a great deal of anxiety over it. The senior showcase is coming up within the next week or so, and I've already decided that I don't think I can go to it because I'll probably hyperventilate when I realize that this is the last class before mine. Holy crap. People don't seem to understand my obsession with the passage of time. To put it in perspective for you, I remember on my 7th birthday, I was lying on the floor of the living room screaming and crying because it was my birthday and I saw my childhood fleeting past me. So, as you can see, it's kind of been a life long thing. Being a senior in college is not cool. I'm not looking forward to it. However, one cool development about next year: I've gotten the ok from my teachers to do a double emphasis in acting and directing. So that's cool. Anyway...