And that was the epiphany

[blueeyedseth]

Man...I just saw a car accident while I was waiting for the bus to school.  All I saw was a flash from the photo radar and then I heard a bang.  I swear to god that my first thought was "Oh my god...Where's my mom?"

I started looking around (because it was too dark to tell car colours easily) and found that my mother was still on my side of the street, safely.  (She'd just dropped me off).

And I got on the bus and I just sat there going "Oh my god...if that had been mom...."  And I nearly started crying.

That was my turning point.  And damn am I ever glad that it didn't come at a worse time.  I'm glad it came while I still have a mom appreciate.

I think if something would have happened to her I would be lost.  I realized that.

I was actually scared.  Like....terrified.  My first thought after my realization on the bus was that "I would have felt so badly if something had happened.  I was so grumpy with her this morning."

I almost ran to the car when I saw she was okay and safe.  Heart attacks are bad this early in the morning.

When I see her after classes today I'm going to give her a hug.  And I'm gonna try my best to be more helpful when I can.

Yeah that's about it.