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well i guess in a way david was right. if i dont get out of here soon, i might end up doing something stupid. i now know how much of a danger i am to myself... i cut again, and i am totaly disapointed in myself but the worst part is, that my therapist said that any deeper and i would have killed myself... maybe subconciously i wanted too... wouldnt be a surprise.... i keep telling myself that life will get better with time and soon i will never be depressed again... but it seems kinda like a fairytale that will never come true.... i guess somehow i did something to diserve all of this.... i keep telling myself to fight and not to give up... but somehow it is starting to sound like the best thing for me... i have no one anymore, every person i have ever cared about in my whole life has been taken away from me in some form or way. guess i am suppose to be alone, it is just what i was meant for...