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wow today was..well hard to describe. i had the worst feeling of stress, paranoia, and being scared all at the same time. for all who do not know, i found out last week that my step mom has cancer. it started in her ovaries and has now spread throughout her reproductive system. she just started cemo last week for it.
well today, she texted me and told me that she really needed to see me and that she had to talk to me about something. so of course i got real paranoid because i thought she was going to tell me that her cancer took a turn for the worse. i always turn to the worst possible scenario. the first thing i thought about was my siblings. if she died, where would they go? my father hasn't been in their lives for over 2 years now. i'm the only family they really have. i didn't take a second thought to it. if i had to, i'd adopt them in a second. i can't stand seeing them go into a foster home. i'd take all 3 of them in a heart beat.
that wasn't the news she was going to tell me but we did talk about this. she agreed with me in saying that i am the only family they have. she said i shouldn't have to worry about her dying for a year or 2 and even then i wouldn't have to worry about money because i would get government checks every month for them.
the thing that gets me though, is that heather is only 31 years old. she has the possibility of dying in the next 5 years. can you imagine me having children? i just thought of this, but i would then be considered a milf. interesting...
anyway..i think i'm going to sleep. maybe that will calm me down.
que duermas con los anjelitos.
well today, she texted me and told me that she really needed to see me and that she had to talk to me about something. so of course i got real paranoid because i thought she was going to tell me that her cancer took a turn for the worse. i always turn to the worst possible scenario. the first thing i thought about was my siblings. if she died, where would they go? my father hasn't been in their lives for over 2 years now. i'm the only family they really have. i didn't take a second thought to it. if i had to, i'd adopt them in a second. i can't stand seeing them go into a foster home. i'd take all 3 of them in a heart beat.
that wasn't the news she was going to tell me but we did talk about this. she agreed with me in saying that i am the only family they have. she said i shouldn't have to worry about her dying for a year or 2 and even then i wouldn't have to worry about money because i would get government checks every month for them.
the thing that gets me though, is that heather is only 31 years old. she has the possibility of dying in the next 5 years. can you imagine me having children? i just thought of this, but i would then be considered a milf. interesting...
anyway..i think i'm going to sleep. maybe that will calm me down.
que duermas con los anjelitos.