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just when the weather starts to get warm and the little shits are almost out of school something in the air starts to change... yeah its the start of summer but more importantly it has always had a slightly more meaningful significance for me... not all summers does the weather effect me like this... last summer nothing,, but this year i felt it... its the eastern wind.. calling me back to visit family and friends... i start smellling the spices in the air and flashes of summer parties with fruits that are pesticide free and tomatoes that acutally taste like tomatoes, my birthday parties with the 300 people in my family and all there friends sitting on the ground under the beautiful trees eating rice with there bear hands, the traditional afternoon naps followed by hooka and tea for adults and ice cream for the kids all come rushing back leading to sensory overload... not going away this summer , having no travel plans is killing medamn azadeh moaveni and her book that i chose to read at this moment... it just makes me miss it all more ... i woke up today finally feeling ok with it.. then i over hear mom talking to my sister about how she has to throw her orienatation for ucla sooner then planned because we are leaving.... well its not full proof yet.. but even the posbility has made me super happy this morning.... we shall see but in the mean time my hope has been restored.... even if it is ever soo slight...