update?
I was doing work for my aunt and mom this morning, and saw my uncle, a man around 80 who has been in recovery for forty some years if I remember right-ish?... saw a book he had out, it was a newer one of the "24 hours a day" book of meditations or whatever... and it was interesting. It was more about just bettering yourself as a person through reflection techniques. So I go to the "Self Esteem Shop" and get one of the newer ones. Ended up with the book "Days of Healing Days of Joy: Daily Meditations for Adult Children"... sounds good enough to me. Also I got the book "The Courage to be Present: Buddhism, Psychotherapy, and the awakening of Natural Wisdom"... Art in the Park is Saturday. Kevin, Ma, Sarah, Aunt Suzy... something like that. His birthday at his parents on Sunday then we go camping till Tuesday. Tuesday is his actual birthday. I'm a Libra, he's a ____ ? So that means I have no idea nor the energy to obsess about even more things. I've done like a million more things in the last few weeks than I had in like a year. Aunt Chery's party. Craziness, or mania?.. I've yet to figure that out. So anyway, back to my uncle. I called him up and asked him about what his higher power is. He said something to the likes of the idea of communication existing to help other people and yourself, and to be in a room full of 50 people and be more honest there than anywhere else. I get it, it's cool. He told me when I saw him that I was made from the stars. Everyone, everything, is made from the stars. I said something to the likes of you can be your own higher power if your higher power is life and the energy that applies to you being a part of it. He told me to write it down. And so now I have.