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[bluechaos]

I had no one else to turn to
I had nothing left to run from
This is not a test from the system
This is the alarm followed by instructions
Where to go
How to get there
What to do
How to survive the night
The basement full of provisions
The local highschool gym filled with cots
In the end, at the end, when the end comes
Everyone helps everyone help everyone
Now, when the end is neither here nor there
The cries for help help help are lost
Drowned by a sea of want want want
---©2003 CandiElizabeth

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I keep having a dream where someone tells me
I have cancer in my eyes
and I will go blind
and there is nothing I can do to stop it
So I scream and cry and throw things
I keep having a dream I'm back at fat camp
and I've been there forever
and I can't seem to lose any weight
So I scream and I cry and I throw things
When I'm awake I am silent
I don't
scream
cry
throw things
Not right now
Now I'm quiet.
Waiting
for
something
anything
somebody
save me.