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merry x-mas to all and to all a good night! lol ok so i got to drink martini's with my mom the last two days, and it was aesome! yeah she mixes this hypnotiq and cherry vodka and it is amazing! i only had one today but i am feeling it, so anywho i had a great christmas, got lots of things i wanted! and even some things i forgot i wanted lol so my truck is gonna get worked on tomorrow, well i hope it is at least and well i have to say i am wondering about matt, i'm sure he still reads this thing and usually he is the type of person to comment about things like wrecking my precious baby! lol my truck and well to be honest i really just want him to say something to me, i mean what the hell did i do wrong this time? i rear ended someone does that mean i have to grow up? or is that not harsh enough? i mean he was god damn right about what i did before so what did i do wrong this time? was it my tattoo? i dont think he realizes that i choose the om because he was part and some of my most important desicions and mistakes, i want to remember always the most important days of my life, sure i'm not pround of over half of the things i did but the other half i damn well enjoyed! yes i know i'm not perfect or even a good person, and i want to be able to look down at my wrist and think to myself "wow i was evil to him, i dont ever want to be that way again" and then i will change my ways to become a better nicer person, thats why i have an om instead of some other meaningless, just for looks, tattoo, maybe thats what i did wrong, i permanatly placed a symbol of him on my body, but how can he be mad at me for that? i didnt do it for him, i did it for me, to remind me and to show me, but at this point anyones guess is as good as mine.
i want to see neil, i havent seen him for over a month, i miss him, he always helped me feel better, well right now i'm feeling pretty good, actually i was feeling good before i had a drink so i know its not some alcohol influenced thing but any who hes a good person and i wanna see a good person that knows me really well and since matt wont have anything to do with me i'm gonna try neil.
i want to see neil, i havent seen him for over a month, i miss him, he always helped me feel better, well right now i'm feeling pretty good, actually i was feeling good before i had a drink so i know its not some alcohol influenced thing but any who hes a good person and i wanna see a good person that knows me really well and since matt wont have anything to do with me i'm gonna try neil.