I need a new name...
I need new name for sure. I tried to post a audio post with my phone, but it still has not shown up.
I went out to get a food, since I didn't wake up until sunset. I felt very sick and got my pizza. I stopped by a CVS and got some painkiller. TOok that. Nearly threw up but I rested at a park near the water (Under a bridge) near my home. I wok eup and ate some and felt a ton better.
Some guys pulled up in a truck and started net fishing for small fish to use as bait for tomorrow. I was waved over and I thought, well why not? I need to stop being so fucking shy. So I brought my keys and walked over with ym stingray bag and talked with them. There were 3 guys. 2 younger and one 1 older man. The older man was drinking, I hadn't noticed until I got there. SO I introduced myself, and immediately the odler man was like OH! MARY! I'm JESUS! DUR HUR HUR! LMAO!!!!! I'm like heh heh. Yea. Mary and Jesus and Joseph. But we were all talking about fishing and crabbing and invited me to go with them tomorrow morning at 6:30. It was cool... until the two youger guys went fishing on the pier and I was left (nearly) alone with the older man. He started talking about how cute I was and hit on me. I rolled it off and shit but then he started talking about Jesus and god and how we're all sinners... he kept mentioning my name as Mary and shit and it really upset me. Just because my name is Mary doens't mean I'm christian or even liek talking about Jesus.
He started being perverted, as all buzzed/drunk rednecks do. And told me how he sooo experinced hes 53 and he knows what women like and ALL WOMEN are the same. They all get turned on over same things. and I alughed at him and asked him if he really meant that and he did. I rolled my eyes and he asked me personal shit I rolled off. When he notied I wasn't interested he'd talk about his fish bites and ow a shark got him then right back to how women LOVE to be held by a strong man and kissed down their necks and on their asses. I laughed and was like "THei're ass?" and he was like "You've neve rbeen kissed on your ass? Women LOVE that." I kept trying to tell him I'm NOT INTO that kinda thing and he just wa sliek "Yes ou are. You can't play me off" I was liek "No sir, I'm not." Then asked me if I'm just scared to have babies. I said I just not into it. Then asked me if I was gay I said no. Whole time I'm trying to get away and he following me. He kes saying how we're all sinners... and I wa slike yea yea. He like don't flap your lips or the devil uses your words against you. I really REALLY should have been like "How you're flapping them right now?" But I was too scared and just wanted to go. He kept going on about how horrible satan is and sinners and I just made me wanna hurt him. I don't worship Satan but god fucking damn it... don't fucking be so ignorant about it. DOn't tell me to hate Satan. I am scared of Satan but I know he plays a very fucking important role in religion. The things people say about him just are so fucking hilarious or off putting I want nothing to do with you guys. I am defesive of Satan, I guess. I understand and accept what role he plays... so why can't other people?
Finally I get to go. I just so disturbed.
I'm gonna cry but I'm more pissed off then upset.
I hate this name so fucking much.
I really need to find a name I like.
And my parents wonder why I don't goto church or someplace to "Mingle" with people.
Prime example.
I feel so dirty and smell like alcohol from his breath. *cry*
I went out to get a food, since I didn't wake up until sunset. I felt very sick and got my pizza. I stopped by a CVS and got some painkiller. TOok that. Nearly threw up but I rested at a park near the water (Under a bridge) near my home. I wok eup and ate some and felt a ton better.
Some guys pulled up in a truck and started net fishing for small fish to use as bait for tomorrow. I was waved over and I thought, well why not? I need to stop being so fucking shy. So I brought my keys and walked over with ym stingray bag and talked with them. There were 3 guys. 2 younger and one 1 older man. The older man was drinking, I hadn't noticed until I got there. SO I introduced myself, and immediately the odler man was like OH! MARY! I'm JESUS! DUR HUR HUR! LMAO!!!!! I'm like heh heh. Yea. Mary and Jesus and Joseph. But we were all talking about fishing and crabbing and invited me to go with them tomorrow morning at 6:30. It was cool... until the two youger guys went fishing on the pier and I was left (nearly) alone with the older man. He started talking about how cute I was and hit on me. I rolled it off and shit but then he started talking about Jesus and god and how we're all sinners... he kept mentioning my name as Mary and shit and it really upset me. Just because my name is Mary doens't mean I'm christian or even liek talking about Jesus.
He started being perverted, as all buzzed/drunk rednecks do. And told me how he sooo experinced hes 53 and he knows what women like and ALL WOMEN are the same. They all get turned on over same things. and I alughed at him and asked him if he really meant that and he did. I rolled my eyes and he asked me personal shit I rolled off. When he notied I wasn't interested he'd talk about his fish bites and ow a shark got him then right back to how women LOVE to be held by a strong man and kissed down their necks and on their asses. I laughed and was like "THei're ass?" and he was like "You've neve rbeen kissed on your ass? Women LOVE that." I kept trying to tell him I'm NOT INTO that kinda thing and he just wa sliek "Yes ou are. You can't play me off" I was liek "No sir, I'm not." Then asked me if I'm just scared to have babies. I said I just not into it. Then asked me if I was gay I said no. Whole time I'm trying to get away and he following me. He kes saying how we're all sinners... and I wa slike yea yea. He like don't flap your lips or the devil uses your words against you. I really REALLY should have been like "How you're flapping them right now?" But I was too scared and just wanted to go. He kept going on about how horrible satan is and sinners and I just made me wanna hurt him. I don't worship Satan but god fucking damn it... don't fucking be so ignorant about it. DOn't tell me to hate Satan. I am scared of Satan but I know he plays a very fucking important role in religion. The things people say about him just are so fucking hilarious or off putting I want nothing to do with you guys. I am defesive of Satan, I guess. I understand and accept what role he plays... so why can't other people?
Finally I get to go. I just so disturbed.
I'm gonna cry but I'm more pissed off then upset.
I hate this name so fucking much.
I really need to find a name I like.
And my parents wonder why I don't goto church or someplace to "Mingle" with people.
Prime example.
I feel so dirty and smell like alcohol from his breath. *cry*