perks
thoughts and ramblings
i'm a jerk, and i would stop being a jerk but i think it's a part of who i am. most times i'm okay with this but i do wish i were born a little nicer, a lot more understanding and personable. and i don't want to seem like i admit this in a proud kind of way because i'm not. i realize when i don't know things and do well in learning from people that do know things. i love learning and talking and listening to things that will make me a better person. i love different perspectives and becoming more understanding.
but, i need people to check me.
i don't even know what i'm trying to say, really. just that, i can be insensitive to things that i don't really know, and i need people to put me in line sometimes. and i appreciate that.
i just finished reading perks of being a wallflower and it related a lot to my life right now, and it helped me understand some things.
towards the end, there was this bit:
"I think that if I ever have kids, and they are upset, I won't tell them that people are starving in China or anything like that because it wouldn't change the fact that they were upset. And even if somebody else has it much worse, that doesn't really change the fact that you have what you have. Good and bad."
this is something i should remind myself, because i go back to this idea every time i, or someone around me, is feeling down. it makes me insensitive to their situation.
but, not rhetorically, is it bad to think like this? just opinions. i don't know
i'm a jerk, and i would stop being a jerk but i think it's a part of who i am. most times i'm okay with this but i do wish i were born a little nicer, a lot more understanding and personable. and i don't want to seem like i admit this in a proud kind of way because i'm not. i realize when i don't know things and do well in learning from people that do know things. i love learning and talking and listening to things that will make me a better person. i love different perspectives and becoming more understanding.
but, i need people to check me.
i don't even know what i'm trying to say, really. just that, i can be insensitive to things that i don't really know, and i need people to put me in line sometimes. and i appreciate that.
i just finished reading perks of being a wallflower and it related a lot to my life right now, and it helped me understand some things.
towards the end, there was this bit:
"I think that if I ever have kids, and they are upset, I won't tell them that people are starving in China or anything like that because it wouldn't change the fact that they were upset. And even if somebody else has it much worse, that doesn't really change the fact that you have what you have. Good and bad."
this is something i should remind myself, because i go back to this idea every time i, or someone around me, is feeling down. it makes me insensitive to their situation.
but, not rhetorically, is it bad to think like this? just opinions. i don't know