welp life update
first uni year is over and i ended up with a 2.5. eh. it's whatever.
mom and jayden and mom's stupid boyfriend have moved out. took 85% of their stuff out the room, now it's just gaping and lonely. i guess i've really grown up because i'm not crying over it, and this is definitely something i'd be depressed over. depressed is a heavy word. i think people throw it around easily, like i am now. i'm not /depressed/, just sad. it's sad to not see jayden every day, and although my mom pisses me off constantly, it's sad to not see her as well. hm, without jayden, this would've been a lot less sad. not that i wouldn't be sad that my mom /moved out/, out of our house of... 15 years?, but less sad, because i love jayden so so so much. and it hurts to have to drive 30 minutes away to see him only on the weekends... that's worse than before. sigh.
but anyways, now my aunt and uncle are cleaning up mom's room and the joined bathroom inside it. they're going to move up, and leave their room for me. my ~first room~. crazy shit. i want to redo it completely, if they're allowed to redo my mom's room. now it's really their house. everybody has moved out, and they have this all to themselves. well, things have certainly changed. it's crazy.
mom and jayden and mom's stupid boyfriend have moved out. took 85% of their stuff out the room, now it's just gaping and lonely. i guess i've really grown up because i'm not crying over it, and this is definitely something i'd be depressed over. depressed is a heavy word. i think people throw it around easily, like i am now. i'm not /depressed/, just sad. it's sad to not see jayden every day, and although my mom pisses me off constantly, it's sad to not see her as well. hm, without jayden, this would've been a lot less sad. not that i wouldn't be sad that my mom /moved out/, out of our house of... 15 years?, but less sad, because i love jayden so so so much. and it hurts to have to drive 30 minutes away to see him only on the weekends... that's worse than before. sigh.
but anyways, now my aunt and uncle are cleaning up mom's room and the joined bathroom inside it. they're going to move up, and leave their room for me. my ~first room~. crazy shit. i want to redo it completely, if they're allowed to redo my mom's room. now it's really their house. everybody has moved out, and they have this all to themselves. well, things have certainly changed. it's crazy.