Brain Tangles.
Warning: Falling into my third slumber of the morning (thanks, medication) so I can't edit this properly. Please excuse any crap. You know - the way you've never had to do before with me.
[Just succumbed to a quick kip.]
Good grief... They're talking about a possible link between eating fast food and developing Alzheimers! They're saying that a diet high in fat, sugar and cholesterol might engender the kind of "brain tangles" I already experience on a daily basis.
I know I'm finally hitting 40 (omfg, I am!) but shouldn't all this be a good 20-30 years away if it's even supposed to happen to me at all? Is it happening to me at all? And is what's happening Alzheimers itself? The forgetfulness is definitely happening. The kind of forgetfulness is. Words, thoughts, concepts get stuck on the tip of my tongue in a deeply 'incorrect' manner. I grapple for very basic words sometimes and have started relying on T. to supply them when they won't usher forth. When the usual mnemonics fail. I try to force, coax and 'suggest' them through the detangling process first - I do sincerely try and I try quite hard - but there are blocks that I can feel - that I marvel at. And still there is this hold-up at brain HQ. The words come eventually but sometimes not for five minutes, sometimes not for five days.
I am intrigued by all of this when discussing it in real life, but it really does terrify me sometimes, too. Ironically I feel lonely when people say, "Yeah, ME TOO." Who does a person see to get their memory or linear thought processes (or lack thereof) assessed or measured... mapped? A neurologist? Someone with excellent mental acuity (like Bill Clinton)? Someone of a proactive nature who would never rest on their laurels over something this far-reaching... Anthony Robbins? How can I find out if preternatural memory losses are the seeds of Alzheimers sowing themselves, or even some other form of dementia? Or is it all just a sign of longterm self-abuse (smoking pot obsessively, eating badly) and mental illness (namely, Major Depression)?
Oh, but God damn all that McBowel Cancer I used t'weet, especially if the results of this research prove to be true. I don't touch Maccas anymore. I couldn't fathom raising one of their slaughterhouse-of-horrors burgers to my lips. But I definitely dined out on the wrong food groups for many, many years.
I'd love to know if redressing the balance the way I try to do these days will have any retroactive, beneficial effect. I doubt it. When I bade farewell to the sticky green, I remember being told that once a neural pathway is destroyed it's permanent. New pathways can be forged, but the old ones are never restored. From personal experience, new pathways tend to be more circuitous; processes appear lumbering and plodding. No thanks from any of my brain tangles for that.
I should just let it go and do a post about girl crushes instead. I has some!
[Just succumbed to a quick kip.]
Good grief... They're talking about a possible link between eating fast food and developing Alzheimers! They're saying that a diet high in fat, sugar and cholesterol might engender the kind of "brain tangles" I already experience on a daily basis.
I know I'm finally hitting 40 (omfg, I am!) but shouldn't all this be a good 20-30 years away if it's even supposed to happen to me at all? Is it happening to me at all? And is what's happening Alzheimers itself? The forgetfulness is definitely happening. The kind of forgetfulness is. Words, thoughts, concepts get stuck on the tip of my tongue in a deeply 'incorrect' manner. I grapple for very basic words sometimes and have started relying on T. to supply them when they won't usher forth. When the usual mnemonics fail. I try to force, coax and 'suggest' them through the detangling process first - I do sincerely try and I try quite hard - but there are blocks that I can feel - that I marvel at. And still there is this hold-up at brain HQ. The words come eventually but sometimes not for five minutes, sometimes not for five days.
I am intrigued by all of this when discussing it in real life, but it really does terrify me sometimes, too. Ironically I feel lonely when people say, "Yeah, ME TOO." Who does a person see to get their memory or linear thought processes (or lack thereof) assessed or measured... mapped? A neurologist? Someone with excellent mental acuity (like Bill Clinton)? Someone of a proactive nature who would never rest on their laurels over something this far-reaching... Anthony Robbins? How can I find out if preternatural memory losses are the seeds of Alzheimers sowing themselves, or even some other form of dementia? Or is it all just a sign of longterm self-abuse (smoking pot obsessively, eating badly) and mental illness (namely, Major Depression)?
Oh, but God damn all that McBowel Cancer I used t'weet, especially if the results of this research prove to be true. I don't touch Maccas anymore. I couldn't fathom raising one of their slaughterhouse-of-horrors burgers to my lips. But I definitely dined out on the wrong food groups for many, many years.
I'd love to know if redressing the balance the way I try to do these days will have any retroactive, beneficial effect. I doubt it. When I bade farewell to the sticky green, I remember being told that once a neural pathway is destroyed it's permanent. New pathways can be forged, but the old ones are never restored. From personal experience, new pathways tend to be more circuitous; processes appear lumbering and plodding. No thanks from any of my brain tangles for that.
I should just let it go and do a post about girl crushes instead. I has some!