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today before i left for work, i made the mistake of glancing up at my always-on bedroom television and fuck it all if highlander wasn't on...HIGHLANDER. so i bet you can guess who was a good ten minutes late to her job today. yeah...i know...lame huh? but they're playing lulu's to sir with love in the mall right now, so that makes me feel a little bit better about my connor macleod miss.
so i just did something stupid...i went to the myspace profile of someone i really shouldn't have. at first glance i just got upset at what i know a friend of mine had been through because of this person, but then i (idiotically) looked at her pictures and just felt worse because of how totally physically beautiful she is, an area in which i certainly will never measure up.
i like to look at beautiful people as much as the next person...but i just can't put that high of a value on physical perfection. it's something one is usually born with, not something acheived or attained through hard work, persistance, life lessons or creativity...and that just makes it an invalid social filter for me. unfortunately even the best hearted people i know still find it a highly appealing attribute in the opposite sex.
ugh...i feel pretty low right now, and my *pb&j with milk/rental of vertigo* cure-all just isn't an option until my day off on sunday. i just hope i can shake this mood by saturday night, otherwise i'll have to dissapoint a friend (which is never fun) because i'm sure he would rather i do that than lie and feign enthusiasm.
so i just did something stupid...i went to the myspace profile of someone i really shouldn't have. at first glance i just got upset at what i know a friend of mine had been through because of this person, but then i (idiotically) looked at her pictures and just felt worse because of how totally physically beautiful she is, an area in which i certainly will never measure up.
i like to look at beautiful people as much as the next person...but i just can't put that high of a value on physical perfection. it's something one is usually born with, not something acheived or attained through hard work, persistance, life lessons or creativity...and that just makes it an invalid social filter for me. unfortunately even the best hearted people i know still find it a highly appealing attribute in the opposite sex.
ugh...i feel pretty low right now, and my *pb&j with milk/rental of vertigo* cure-all just isn't an option until my day off on sunday. i just hope i can shake this mood by saturday night, otherwise i'll have to dissapoint a friend (which is never fun) because i'm sure he would rather i do that than lie and feign enthusiasm.