LJ Back up for me etc...

Mar 08, 2020 17:25

I was so happy to find various friends still on LJ some months ago. I was happily posting and reconnecting when my LJ feed stopped working for over a month. This was frustrating because it shorted my effort to reconnect here. Is working now but I do not know for how long. I have two FB accounts that I keep pretty current one under my real name and one under another real name but with an old picture of me from 1992 taken in Russia one weekend. I got a Studio Contract my first year at University and have a number of fun little credits that I forgot about until Netflix started re-airing 1990’s shows and images. I don’t remember what was being filmed there but that may have been the weekend my boyfriend back then insisted I learn ice wall climbing. He was filming “2307” and basically said we couldn’t be friends unless I climbed up the scary ice wall. I love “2307” because it has real images of friends I remember but haven’t seen in over 20 years like my Elementary School BFF. I think I’ve gone and accidentally married the mean blue guy everyone is chasing in the movie. He won’t admit it though. I have one memory of him asking me out back then. He’s Californian not British and doing mathematical research on probability and economics at this point not movies. That’s probably the Studio Contract Job I had most fun on. We fought over who got to play “cookie & milk” girl.

I appear in two roles, one with my forehead digitally altered to allow multiple roles on the same film. Without digital alteration, I appear in the scene where the Dr’s Lab gets invaded and blown up. I am sitting holding MY baby. This was the last Studio film I remember doing. Basically, one of the Producers hated me and started altering my image on another film to extremely ugly. I sued and won. It’s a violation of Studio Contract to alter the image of a Studio “Beauty” Actress to “Ugly” without written consent. It’s also considered defamation. There was a lot of bad blood between me and the Studio because of “Dark Matter.” I was so terrorized on “Dark Matter” which aired originally about 1992-1993 that I had mental health issues afterwards. I was married at the time to a big “russian” hottie who visited me on set and did the evil nanobot robot scene with Will Wheaton & “Portia” et al. He was visiting me and got talked into doing an extra guest appearance. He gets shot a few times and wallop with a sword by the oriental Actor in the scene. The issue? The gun was live and the bullets were real. I was on the next door set apparently. I don’t remember that but clearly. I knew CPR. The last time I saw him, he was laying on the floor of that set with blood gushing out of him in multiple places. I couldn’t even look at his face but started pressing on the body wound gushing the most blood until the paramedics showed up to clamp the wound and rush him to the hospital. He was still alive at that point. I remember screaming and sobbing and praying. One of his bodyguards rushed me off the set, drove me to LAX? purchased two plane tickets and flew with me to my Mom’s house in Texas. He didn’t leave my side until I was back in Texas with Mom. I was pregnant at the time. I barely remember that pregnancy but I think was about 7 months pregnant. “2307” was filmed afterwards and I believe the 1-2 year old baby I am holding in the Doctor’s Lab was the Baby I was pregnant with last on the “Dark Matter” set. I was still nursing which was why the baby was with me. No had bodyguards on that film for either me or the baby which is why in that scene I just stand up and hide next to the window. I got told at that point that he had lived through being shot in the face but was in a Coma. They did not want him waking up from Coma watching anything I or the baby was in and freaking out over a fake death. THAT is part of the behind the scenes story of “2307.” I flew to Norway at some point for his Funeral but then didn’t attend it, too upset. “Dark Matter” is phenomenally well written stories. At the time the writer was being called “the next Gene Roddenberry” for the “Dark Matter” Story. HE dropped the show & script writing after also being terrorized by the Producers. HE was a graduate student at either MIT or Caltech at the time and basically said, “This is my Summer Job. I’m not gonna be murdered for a stupid Cable TV Summer Job when my real career is worth more than your Cable Network!” Last I heard aprox 10 years ago, he was worth over 500 Million from aeronautical stealth technology Royalties. After the most recent publicized purchase of Military Aircraft, he’s a solid billionaire. He decided to buzz me in Maryland by geek style drive by in his restored original Model-T Car...sooo obnoxious Ty! What his Daddy said though is that he literally kept writing “Dark Matter” episodes for several years after the show canceled because of the attempted murders on set. This news is ALMOST as good as finding out there’s a new “Firefly” movie in production.
So, how do you pester a geeky billionaire into making a safer version (with non-psychotic Producers not doing drugs) of a sci-fi hit??? I’m not sure! Ask my son with him, he might have an idea??? BTW Daniel, you should sue your biological billionaire Daddy for child support and maybe that obnoxious Model-T! Mwahahaha! Also, next time you want to stalk your Mommy and date her friends you don’t need to do so in fursuit. You can visit your Grandmother’s house and rake leaves after your older brother is done mowing the lawn! ;)
And on the subject of old hottie boyfriends, DID my old BFF Swandog sleep with the guy the Producers we’re trying to say was my husband after lots of plastic surgery??? Let’s DNA test her youngest son and find out!

I can’t blame Swandog for sleeping with him, the Producers we’re trying to get off an FBI investigation “hate” list. The Actor that shot him got 25 years in USA prison that was supposedly reduced to 10 after he was located alive. The other three Men murdered on set were not located alive to my knowledge. Basically, the Producers started “Dark Matter” with the intent of making it a “snuff flick” if it didn’t do well. The primary on set Director/Producer was wanted at the time in Russia for making Russian Snuff Flicks. He murdered five people on Russian sets from what I remember the FBI saying when they were investigating my husband’s murder on “Dark Matter” set. The German response to news of these murders was a lot of disclaimers added to German films and credits on screen of everyone on set including interns and stunt doubles. I LOVE the Germans for this response. For a year after his murder, I had uncontrollable sobbing. I practiced memory loss to keep from suiciding. If you grew up a bookish geek you understand why. If you’re an asshole Producer you have no understanding of what I am talking about because you’re emotionally stunted. What happened after “Dark Matter” that makes Swandog innocent? What can easily be called psychiatric torture.

I got presented with a newly remodeled husband on film. The way this worked was a Family Member showed up at my Texas home with a video of the new Cable Show she was approached to star in. She was upset 😢. She possibly slept with my? Supposed Newly remodeled Husband. MY Step-Brother who looks very similar to the supposed newly remodeled Husband saw the on screen sex scenes and left her threatening a Divorce and taking there 3-kids with him! HE was stationed overseas in the Military while she was filming. She wasn’t an Actress ,although she ought to be one , and he apparently had his Military Buddies show him the Show while overseas. I can imagine...”My Angel is a Centerfold!” He would not speak to her for a while on return and I was the only person in the Family who knew about Hollywood Sets back then and the drug use on set and the drinks spiked with Rohybtnal and waking up sobbing because you went out to a nice restaurant, got your drink spiked by a waiter and got fucked by ten waiters while dosed with Rohybtnal and waiting on dinner. Yes, that happened and I thanked God after three years of Aids Tests that I was HIV Free. THAT is what the “meToo” movement is really about! My childhood BFF was an avowed Lesbian and lost her virginity that way. My Husband, prior to being shot in the face on set, had insisted I quit acting and move back to Europe with him because of the rampant Rohybtnal rapes going on in LA at the time. I agreed and the FBI considered that a possible motive for the attack on him. I was leaving “Dark Matter” to be a Wife & Mom at the end of that season. The Cast was pissed off about it believing my character with the big fan club was the Prime viewer draw. Very low self-esteem Actors in my opinion. I was not that hard to replace on set and there are plenty of better, more beautiful Actresses who could have easily taken over the role. Rohybtnal was the new easy to get street drug then and Actors were reeling from rape trauma. You go to Hollywood knowing that you’re probably going to have sex with a Producer at some point to get a role. But you’re in control of which Producer and you get the role for being promiscuous. Rohybtnal issued in an era of rape in Hollywood with NO payback for the victim of a movie role. It issued in an era of Actors as Slave Labor in LA. I got THREE paychecks for “Dark Matter” totaling $20,000 despite being in almost every episode for three seasons. Other Cast got Nada. That’s Slave Labor and WHY I refused to continue working prior to my husband’s near murder. I’m not an investigator but my guess is that Organized Mafia Crime Bosses we’re in the process of taking over Hollywood Production Studios et al. My Husband was making a lot of waves demanding I get paid for my acting. Anyone want to stay in Hollywood being Rohybtnal raped and then not get a paycheck for over a year of work and being the SciFi Fans Favorite Character??? Nope. That’s Hollywood in the 1990’s. I agreed to $5000 an episode starting in season 2 AND my original name credit is a deeply insulting Norwegian fake name that means “Fucks everyone” according to my Norse friends. The name credit is actually my own fault, I set the Producers screwing me over up with that one. Mwahaha! Nothing like angry Norse hunting you for calling a girl a bad name. My Sister-in-Law didn’t get a paycheck either for most of her work. Basically, she sobbed and cried at my round white kitchen table in my white country kitchen and stated she had been drugged along with my supposedly newly remodeled husband. I watched the episodes and agreed with her. I knew her since we were 15 & 16 and she starts treating him on film like she treated my Step-Brother. You can just tell if you know her. She doesn’t treat anyone but my Step-Brother like that and she seems confused to me, knowing her. He seems slightly psychotic in his confusion on that set and only lucid 1/2 the time. That’s a drug symptom.

Anyway, I got concerned and talked her into sneaking me onto the set to check on him. Mwhahaha! I dressed up like a Prostitute that someone had pulled off the streets for him to fuck and screwed over those asshole Producers trying to confuse him into sleeping with his sibling! I was not recognized except by him. That was happy and very upsetting for me. He was only 1/2 there. He was taking drugs probably morphine for severe headaches from being shot in the face. He was also having Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome intermittently and came close to killing two people on set. I left expecting him to come see me in Texas at season close because he was getting violent during PTSD attacks. He never showed up to see me in my memory although I also contracted Meningitis around this time. Where did he go? Is he still living or dead? Netflix puts these 1990’s shows up and dates them like they are 2020 shows. That’s confusing the issue. Swandog’s youngest son wasn’t born with he filmed the “current” Netflix series. I was 22 when filming “Dark Matter” and they added digital aging so I fit in with the 30-year old cast. I’m in my Forties now. I also aged differently than there digital editing. I don’t have mouth lines, I have little crows feet from smiling and dark under-eye circles and eye puffinesses. I’m also not that skinny anymore. I’m not fat but I’m not a size 2-4 either anymore. I’m a size 6-8 at the moment. To stay that skinny, I avoided Pizza for several years and ate nasty 🤢 vegetable smoothies for months at a time. Anybody want to do that and not actually get a paycheck??? I found a few of my clothes from then packed away in Mom’s garage and managed to fit tightly in a few items. Having babies, means my sit-up champion waistline is a little flabby too. Would I give up this babies for my super skinny waistline again? I don’t really have to. Getting off my Netflix watching ass and doing regular sit-ups would likely fix the flab!

But back on his set, I snuck on set and helped keep him less confused. THAT was what the asshole Producers we’re doing to him. He’s Norse, he had a pornstar penis and they were trying to get him to be there evil rape pornstar enforcer or something. I’m not actually sure what they were after but he came close to breaking up my Step-Brother’s marriage and he said they didn’t actually have sex. I think I believe him because she’s a lot too little to have sex with him without SCREAMING and trying to get away and trying to beat him up. That’s Hollywood Producer ridiculousness. They put multiple women around him all of whom are 5 foot 3 inches tall or shorter, He’s tall for a Norse and then they think he’s going to attempt sex with a “midget.” His Grandpa asked me a lot of very intimate sex questions in Norway because he was baffled at me being with him sexually and I’m 5 foot 5 at the time. You get married to someone and then you’re glad as a woman that you drank lots of alcohol 🍷 at the Wedding. When you get to the Wedding night, you wake up from a dazed drunken stupor see him naked and scream! “WTF! IS IT REAL???” Afterwards, I confronted my junior high school Bible Class Teacher about telling lies about boy’s penis size! I vaguely remember her saying that was the only way to get her son’s married and getting any Grandchildren! Be warned Ladies! But I think the Producers intended on making him a Porn Enforcer. Males always seem to think up the stupidest sex stuff imaginable. Then they get in trouble and you’re just looking at them wondering why they’re so stupid. I don’t know why they didn’t want us together. I screamed enough to satisfy most sadists. The “issue” appears to have been “Love.” He was not a cruel man and he felt pretty bad apparently for being over-sized. After the Honeymoon, guilt-tripping your husband for his overly large penis means he’s suddenly your whipped-toy-boy bringing you breakfast in bed, flowers, jewelry, clothes etc. That’s a good place to be from a female perspective and since he’s getting regular sex with minimal effort probably from his perspective too. Isn’t that what marriage is mostly about? Otherwise it’s just another roommate situation. His PTSD was scary. I was friends with another female Co-Star who was scared to be in ANY fight scenes with him. She knew him longer than me and he scared her on that set. Drugs and PTSD meant he appeared to think the set and scenes were real. She’s having the best time playing a villain and we’re laughing about some of her spontaneous lines that just popped out, and he’s confused enough to think his BFF from Elementrary School is actually that rotten. Producers aren’t doing mental healthcare checks to see if he needs an onset Therapist to check his sense of reality. AND THAT is a big issue I have with everyone involved. He fucking got shot in the face, lost his Wife & child because of deliberate gossip estrangement, is suffering from painful migraines, wakes up screaming from scary nightmares and is only half-healed from plastic surgery etc....WHY exactly is everyone but him seeing Therapists??? Hmmm??? He was also suicidal at the time over not being allowed to see his Wife and his marriage woes. That worries me. Is he MY original Husband I married at University? I don’t know. I remember sleeping with him and sleeping with him on that set but my confusion is enough that I would need a DNA Test to determine that. Is he the same guy that got shot in the face or a different guy? That sounds fantastic but realize there were a number of Hollywood Producers trying to get off an FBI 1st Degree Murder rap! I’d like to talk to him over a non-drugged Dinner or Coffee and figure out if he’s the right guy who got shot in the face or the wrong guy. I got asked by his Father? To divorce him while he would have been in Coma and refused. I refused rather dramatically in front of a large crowd in Norway while being bullied. I must proudly say that was a bit like “Young Victoria”...”NO! I WON’T sign Divorce Papers! WHY do YOU want me to Divorce a ‘Dead Man’!”
“You’ve misunderstood me! You have to Divorce your OTHER Husband to get married to my OTHER Son!”
“HMPH! YOUR TRYING TO TRICK ME INTO DIVORCING MY DEAD HUSBAND! WHERE IS HE! WHERE IS HE! HE’s obviously ALIVE! WHERE IS HE!”
“Amy, you can’t get married to my other Son without getting a Divorce.”
“Why not?”

“That’s the Law!”
“I don’t understand. Can we just hold off on this Divorce business for a while? I mean nobody bothered to tell me in advance that I had to sign a bunch of paperwork and I haven’t had a chance to read them and I cannot read well upset and with an audience.”
“OK. But you cannot get re-married without getting a Divorce.”
“Maybe we should hold off on that too. Nobody bothered to tell me until you did five minutes ago that I had to renounce my USA Citizenship to marry him and I don’t want to do that. OK?”
“Nobody told you about that?”
“NO SIR!”
“OK. I can at least fix THAT! WRITE IT DOWN IN MY BOOK! AMY IS GRANTED DUAL NORWEGIAN AND USA CITIZENSHIP BY MY DECREE ON THIS DATE IN THE YEAR OF NINETEEN HUNDRED AND ...”
“Now, you read that Divorce paperwork and think about what you want to do. My Son has decided to proceed with his own Divorce.”
“He IS?!”
“Yes!”
“Oh! Huh! OK! Thanks!”

My confused memory means I have significant unfinished business to attend to.

unfinished business

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