Follow your own advice
I'm feeling rather weird today, unfocussed and restless. Last night I was on the phone till after 4AM... Ahhhh, the joys of having friends and family in completely different time zones... Then I slept till noon after having some strange dream about climbing these mountains of rolled asphalt and barely hanging on to them. Then I got up and was too lazy to do anything productive {such as going for a walk, hellooo! Get moving!} so I ate, read and internetted like the lazy Sunday bum that I am. It's rather drab out there this afternoon, windy and overcast after really hot weather {30 C} in the last days and well, it just adds to my lack of motivation.
All I really want to do now is space out to some travel or history programs on PBS and eat Lindt 's Dark Chocolate with Pears. But I have a 'date' later so lounging time will be limited. PBS {http://www.pbs.org/} and these programs are a personal ritual, one of the things that keep me sane when I cannot physically travel myself on a regular basis. Both "travel" and "regular basis" are subject to definition... Mine seems to vary quite a bit from other people's as I have noticed around here, lol. The recent Europe trip was great but too short. They always are. I'm contemplating my next move and have trouble narrowing it down to one area at the moment. I feel rather travel-deprived again already and there are so many destinations whirring around in my head that would be just perfect. Anywhere but here, the voices say. I also need to figure out what to do with my 'date' still in terms of trips, if I should plan something with him, or with Mom and Dad, somebody else, or none of the above and just go.
I've been thinking about Jordi again and wish I could get back in touch. I wonder if I'm overanalyzing and should simply go and do it. One can complicate things that in the best case don't have to be complicated at all. Essentially there is nothing to lose, ever. Why don't we just act? People in general spend so much time worrying about what ifs and keeping face that they're really just standing in their own way. {Keeping face -- this reminds me, it's CHINESE NEW YEAR today - Year of the Pig / Ding Hai - and I'm not dong anything today, how sad... But there shall be a Chinese Feast tomorrow in celebration and merriment for the next 15 days! =)}.
On the topic, I should remember to follow my own advice and just do it. Life is short for all of us.