Dissertation on the nation
I had a rather ambiguous reference to feeling a positive change in my life in an earlier post. This random AIM convo sort of touches on it without going into too much detail. Sort of. Hah. Read if you want or don't. I don't give a fuck, just mind the edges so you don't get a paper kut.( Read more... )
i am saddened every day from learning of this world. it gets me down because i have so much heart for people and i want the 'oneness'. i feel what people around me feel. i feel the earths cry. i believe that is one reason why it is so hard for me to open up to people, because i put my whole into that person. and for this ive been used and mistreated, it drains me and causes me not to trust people. it takes me a long time to feel comfortable enough to be around a person, to open up and talk. i know it makes other people feel awkward sometimes, and requires patients. its hard to know where to put my energy into, so i fall back on the comfortable and familiar.
i never mean to let down anyone, or to offend them in any way. its how my peculiar mind works.
i have no idea what my place in this world is. so i must do what i need to be out on my own to survive. and when that calling comes, ill be so damn ready.
there are so many people fed up with society, people like you, me, chase and other rare friends of mine/ours. the people that realize that the 'plan' is not in human/earth favor. keep the bond with these people, they are the ones that will make the difference.
love, learn, teach, grow, be stubborn on your beliefs...
(and enough of my bad sentence structure :P )
*huggs*
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