finally have time....
well i finally have time to sit and write a proper entry. havent felt like it in a while. guess i've just been busy.
so about that job thing. i'm just scared i think. scared that its too permanent, that i'll be stuck. the interview went great though. i could tell he liked me b/c he told me he did. its just he told me that it would be a job that you cannot, cannot call in, you have to be there every time you are scheduled. my training will be 5 nights a week, 11pm to 7am and i've never done that before. after that training i've got more training thats 5 days a week, 1st or 2nd shifts, alternating. i dunno about that. he said nothing is ever set in stone there and that your schedule constantly changes. i think i need something more set and in a certain pattern. i need to get into a pattern of sleep and wake cycles, not going back and forth every other week. i just think for my first job back, this is just too much. too serious. too soon. i havent heard back from him yet, but when/if he calls i'm either not going to pick up or tell him i'm not interested anymore. i'll wait until after spring break when wulfie comes, that way i know i'll have that week off. after that, there is a new rec center opening up in troy sometime after march. i think i'll apply there. i got a book in the mail from there the other day and it said they were looking for desk people, lifeguards that they will train, and other positions. that sounds more my type of thing right now. just a simple, easy job to get back into. not a full time, full blown career job.
pops is doing better. i saw him a lil over a week ago and he looks so much better. got color, up walking around, talking just fine, clear as day. amazing really. almost miracle-like. he really amazes me. we had a nice talk while i was there with him, just he and i. he told me he loved me and i should know that. i love it when he tells me things like that. it makes me feel so close to him. i cant really explain it more than that. it just feels so good.
i ordered mike a video card for his computer and world of warcraft the other day. i cant wait til he gets it so we can play. i know he'll love the game, i just know it. it'll be so cool to have someone to play with too. i'm so addicted to it >.< lol almost sad really. but thats ok. it could be worse. i could be a druggie or a drunk. this is ok :)
not really anything else i wanna add on here.. next weekend is our anniversary. 1 year. On the 28th. Sure doesn't seem like it's been a whole year. i have no idea what we're gonna do yet. not anything big though. i think we'll pretty much stay either in Troy, Dothan, or Montgomery. i was thinking about going to the beach like we did on our honeymoon, but everything is closed there. i mean, the weather would be wonderful since it's been so hot and humid lately.. but i want something to do. we'll see. ben said something about wanting to be the one to plan it. nice change :)
so about that job thing. i'm just scared i think. scared that its too permanent, that i'll be stuck. the interview went great though. i could tell he liked me b/c he told me he did. its just he told me that it would be a job that you cannot, cannot call in, you have to be there every time you are scheduled. my training will be 5 nights a week, 11pm to 7am and i've never done that before. after that training i've got more training thats 5 days a week, 1st or 2nd shifts, alternating. i dunno about that. he said nothing is ever set in stone there and that your schedule constantly changes. i think i need something more set and in a certain pattern. i need to get into a pattern of sleep and wake cycles, not going back and forth every other week. i just think for my first job back, this is just too much. too serious. too soon. i havent heard back from him yet, but when/if he calls i'm either not going to pick up or tell him i'm not interested anymore. i'll wait until after spring break when wulfie comes, that way i know i'll have that week off. after that, there is a new rec center opening up in troy sometime after march. i think i'll apply there. i got a book in the mail from there the other day and it said they were looking for desk people, lifeguards that they will train, and other positions. that sounds more my type of thing right now. just a simple, easy job to get back into. not a full time, full blown career job.
pops is doing better. i saw him a lil over a week ago and he looks so much better. got color, up walking around, talking just fine, clear as day. amazing really. almost miracle-like. he really amazes me. we had a nice talk while i was there with him, just he and i. he told me he loved me and i should know that. i love it when he tells me things like that. it makes me feel so close to him. i cant really explain it more than that. it just feels so good.
i ordered mike a video card for his computer and world of warcraft the other day. i cant wait til he gets it so we can play. i know he'll love the game, i just know it. it'll be so cool to have someone to play with too. i'm so addicted to it >.< lol almost sad really. but thats ok. it could be worse. i could be a druggie or a drunk. this is ok :)
not really anything else i wanna add on here.. next weekend is our anniversary. 1 year. On the 28th. Sure doesn't seem like it's been a whole year. i have no idea what we're gonna do yet. not anything big though. i think we'll pretty much stay either in Troy, Dothan, or Montgomery. i was thinking about going to the beach like we did on our honeymoon, but everything is closed there. i mean, the weather would be wonderful since it's been so hot and humid lately.. but i want something to do. we'll see. ben said something about wanting to be the one to plan it. nice change :)