Nov 25, 2009 20:26
soooo...i hate crying.
i don't think i've cried this much EVER in my entire life...except for the time where i couldnt go to art school and major in graphic design...oh, and when my dog passed away in 06...
other than that, today and yesterday have been pretty upsetting days.
i've been crying both days...sighh
i feel like all the frustration i've held inside since the beginning of this semester is just pouring itself out because tears just keep falling and falling...
and the guy i used to like said some bad things about me...and it really hurt me but you know what, whatever.
i guess i can put him down to the level with jason and anthony...but sighh. whatever.
the beginning of this thanksgiving break sucks. he threw away my precious sunglasses...sunglasses i've cherished since like...forever.
and soo, like a baby, i cried cause they were important to me...sigh.
i give up. i dont care if he doesnt want to mend things up...cause i tried and he didnt cooperate with me so i guess that's the end...
It's so depressing...I hate seeing friendship go to waste...but he hurt me and said bad things about me...and i dont know if i can ever forget it.
sure, i can forgive him, but it's going to be different.
sigh...college is exciting but depressing. my freaking EYES hurt...freaking rawr.
im just going to forget about everything. im just going to act like nothing happened.
i dont care anymore. im going to UT austin next year anyway. there's no point. i seriously give up.
im tired of putting faith in people and im tired of giving chances. chances and faith are out now.
there are no more second chances anymore.