she let herself go..
i am doing so good now.
i thought i would have a really hard time giving jon up. but once i found out about some things it has been so easy. i realize now he is just a piece of shit and not worth my time what-so-ever. i dont know what i was thinking being with him, he NEVER treated me good. and always used me for one thing, yeah maybe then he'ds spit out a little kindness but i'd be gone as soon as he got what he wanted.
i am just so glad to get out of it. i was never happy with him and i was so tied down all the time.
now im free.
im going out and having fun and doing all the things that he never let me do or didnt want to do with me. but now i'd rather do it alone then with him any day.
school is going great! i've never loved school so much in my life.
i did my first clinical at six forks last wednesday and my preceptor (the paramedic i ride with and teaches me) is so hot. he was so nice and spent a lot of time helping me learn and let me jump in and do things on the very first call. it was kind of a slow day. i had one accident call, and two seizure calls. the last seizure call was the most fun, except that the girl who had it was only a year older than me and was all trying to baby talk me. i got mad and told her how old i was and she was like "ohhh im so sorry, i thought you were a highschooler" UGH!
im going to six forks ems next wednesday as well and he's working that day. i am excited. haha.
tuesday i'll get one more successful IV in class and then will be checked off in my scope of practice which means i can practice it in the field. (wednesday!)
my dad is having a major surgery on tuesday and i am really nervous about it. it makes me cry just to think about it.
he's getting his spine fused and its a huge surgery he wont be able to get out of bed for at least three days. and will remain in the hospital for five. (which of course will change because he went through chemo therapy at my age and now is a slow healer) he also has to get a blood transfusion and that is scary. and when he comes home he has to basically be flat on his back for a week or two. he'll go crazy, he's always got to be moving or doing something.
but yeah just pray about that for me.
annnnd im doing great because i have a crush on a boy. i hang out with him a lot now. we talked for two hours on the phone last night (he hates talking on the phone). and i've kissed him a few times and stuff too.its great.
he's gotten so hot from high school. haha.
its a secret about who it is!
the end.
i thought i would have a really hard time giving jon up. but once i found out about some things it has been so easy. i realize now he is just a piece of shit and not worth my time what-so-ever. i dont know what i was thinking being with him, he NEVER treated me good. and always used me for one thing, yeah maybe then he'ds spit out a little kindness but i'd be gone as soon as he got what he wanted.
i am just so glad to get out of it. i was never happy with him and i was so tied down all the time.
now im free.
im going out and having fun and doing all the things that he never let me do or didnt want to do with me. but now i'd rather do it alone then with him any day.
school is going great! i've never loved school so much in my life.
i did my first clinical at six forks last wednesday and my preceptor (the paramedic i ride with and teaches me) is so hot. he was so nice and spent a lot of time helping me learn and let me jump in and do things on the very first call. it was kind of a slow day. i had one accident call, and two seizure calls. the last seizure call was the most fun, except that the girl who had it was only a year older than me and was all trying to baby talk me. i got mad and told her how old i was and she was like "ohhh im so sorry, i thought you were a highschooler" UGH!
im going to six forks ems next wednesday as well and he's working that day. i am excited. haha.
tuesday i'll get one more successful IV in class and then will be checked off in my scope of practice which means i can practice it in the field. (wednesday!)
my dad is having a major surgery on tuesday and i am really nervous about it. it makes me cry just to think about it.
he's getting his spine fused and its a huge surgery he wont be able to get out of bed for at least three days. and will remain in the hospital for five. (which of course will change because he went through chemo therapy at my age and now is a slow healer) he also has to get a blood transfusion and that is scary. and when he comes home he has to basically be flat on his back for a week or two. he'll go crazy, he's always got to be moving or doing something.
but yeah just pray about that for me.
annnnd im doing great because i have a crush on a boy. i hang out with him a lot now. we talked for two hours on the phone last night (he hates talking on the phone). and i've kissed him a few times and stuff too.its great.
he's gotten so hot from high school. haha.
its a secret about who it is!
the end.