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[bloodyxbert]

it's a funny thing striving for happiness
...

the Road.
the movie. it is quite a sad story.
the end of the world.
everyone dead..almost at least.
chaos.
sadness.
a lot of suicide and cheater and killers.
starvation.

what is happiness alone?
huh?
im not busy enough to be happy alone.
not at this time in my life.
im not doing much to reach out to people though.

i had a dream last night...it was full of blood.
i didnt want to go have my blood spilled again.
i crawled into bed with this guy i know.
he slept naked, but didnt seem to mind
and yet he seemed very confused that i actually liked him
or wanted to be with him.
he was shocked. in a way.
and he was quiet as i spoke to him softly in bed.
crying that i wanted to stay there with him and not go out and do what i was supposed to do.

i wonder where he is now?
i do miss him.
and i really did miss him on the last day of class.
i missed him at the test the most.
what's his problem anyways?
whats wrong with him?
he is so weird.
he is such a douche.

when will i find that one boy?