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[bloodyxbert]

what was i thinking about today?
life death
i am tired
yes i kno i am
b/c i was very depressed and wanted to eat a lot of sugary goods
:/

i have many perfect sandwiches
but today i made one with toasted wheat bread
cream cheese
cucumbers
tomatoes
and sprouts
w/ bean soop on the side.

and lots of dessert :/

man
i still dont know what to do with matt
i love him so much
and he tells me the craziest things that make me go crazy

i was thinking that maybe he doesnt want to get to close to me
b/c he doesnt want his heart hurt
like his ex of a year and half did
u kno wut?
he is so easy to fall in love with
but he is definately a great guy
i dont want to hurt him like he has hurt me
we hurt each other
but i think if i can get him to move this way
he will be my perfect baby.

goddamn he is handsome too.
but he isnt hot
which is what i like
hes got that edge to him that's not perfect
but just what im looking for.

but i also know that james likes me......
what a disaster
everything is a disaster right now.
i have to write a research paper now.... bye