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[bloodytears1706]

well.....................i have found out alot since last night, adam and that little hoe brandy started dating like right after he and i broke up and thats what he wanted......thats why he wanted me to leave him which fucking hurts like no one can imagine, having to know that hes with her and happier, and know that shes getting what i want and love, makes me sick. i just wanna curl up in a ball and dissapear for a long ass time, i get so upset and depressed and sick and pissed off all at the same time that it makes me go into a fucking panic attack, it makes me want to rip my own flesh off. i just want him back i dont care......i cant take this. and i guess she wanted him to bring her with him when he brings me all my stuff back so she can beat my ass. shes the one thats getting her ass beat cause no one takes something i love that much away from me and gets away with it, i will fuck them both up, i know how to fuck with him emotionally and i know how to fuck with her physically.......

so everyone that hatedus together cause i was happy, i hope your all fuckin happy casue now i am back to my depressed self, i want nothing more then to die right now, it doesnt sound that bad, i rather would die then have to feel all this for him.

and another thing everyone wants me to fucking jump into pats arms, sorry but i cant right now i am affectionate with him cause hes comforting me, but relationship wise and physically i cant fatham being with anyone else. physically i ahve gotten so comfortable with him i cant do that with anyone else.