upside down...

Nov 20, 2004 21:56

Yeah, I know I haven't updated in awhile, but I've really had nothing to say. Everything's the same... school, work and girl scouts ( Read more... )

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bloodymary86 November 21 2004, 12:21:11 UTC
Thank you for your words dear. Actually what you said was good to hear because I always value an outsiders opinion, especially yours. I'm very aware of what's going on but I'm so confused about what to do or think about it. I know that sounds odd because you would think that if what has been happening is bad or wrong that I would do something about it... but that's just it... I don't know if this has been all bad or good. I don't know if this is just the new me that I've been hiding in the closet for so many years or that my morals have gone to shit.

Yeah, I like to be honest about things. I don't like to hide things and I'm very open most of the time. I mean don't get me wrong, I don't tell everyone everything but I like to let people know what's really going on with me so no one's really left in the dark. I respect people like you who can keep yourself guarded. It's much harder for me to do that for some reason. I don't know. I just feel like I'm falling apart Laura! I used to seem so put together and can handle anything but now I just can't! I can't seem to stay stable anymore. The things I used to value and believe in mean shit anymore. Oy!

Like I said before though, I value your opinion very much so when I get some time... I'll email you what's been happening. It's going to shock you (or it may not), but I really don't feel like I have anything to hide from you or that you would judge me. Anyways, again Laura... Thank you for everything. Hopefully I can send you something soon! Luv ya girl.

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