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Well, yesterday was one of my major down days but i was rescued by my friends and i love them for that. I'm just so tired of everything and they way things never seem to work out for me. I think it wouldn't be so hard if i had "someone", ya know, a spouse, a lover, something. I know im not alone but in that sense i am. I've always tried to define myself by who i am with at the time and it's hard to differentiate from that routine. Whenever i do like someone they always end up liking me just as a friend. Which i'm not complaining but after about ten people tell you they just want to be your friend i feel like i wanna say "Hey! I wanna bf/gf, not a friend!". Does that sound rude or selfish? I probably am and don't notice it sometimes.But for all the friends i have made at school i want to thank you all. I don't think i would've made it so far this year without you all here to help me through my rough times. I love you and don't know what i would do without you. I feel like i've been friends with you since high school and thats great. I'm also staring to feel like a part of the group. I can say our group without feeling awkward. I love it!!!! Sharon, thank you for always being here for me, talking to me, telling me how wonderful i am, offering me a place to get away. You are my savior!!! Brian, thank you for being sweet and listening to me and pretty much doing the same things as Sharon, I love you so much!! Clinton, thank you for hanging out with me and making me laugh, you always know how to put me into a good mood. I don't know what i would do without you!!! Cat, you are such a sweet beautiful person, and i'm glad i get to be your friend. I will always be here for you to talk to and to threaten your exes!! hehe! And thank you for not laughing in my face or making me feel like an idiot for putting my feelings out in the open. I'll be happy just knowing we're homies!! Ashley, you are a really sweet girl and i haven't gotten to talk to you much in awhile but i hope that changes because i love you and love hanging with you, especially at porn shops!! hehe! Sly, your are quite a character and thats one of things i love about you the most! You are always there to help and to pick up the extra slack. You are also a very, very sweet man and thats why we all love you so much!! Darcy, you are a crazy girl but im really glad i've gotten to know you better. Thank you for being there for me also and i hope we never lose touch!!! To everyone i love you all with all of my heart and soul and i hope to god or goddess that i never lose you all. Thank you all for being there for me when i am down and i hope you will continue to be there for me, because goddess knows there will be more down times.