No I won't.

[bloodycoke]

I can't believe myself. I like Will. Geezus. Why do I never get tired of this? All of this is bullshit! Falling for a guy you don't know at all, you can't touch at all. Why the hell am I so fucking shallow like this? Why am I so easy? Above all, why am I so damn stupid

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[airsunyi]

I almost cry reading this, 'cause I have the same problem like you too. Falling in love with a guy that never consider me as his friend, not even a classmate because I feel like most of the time we're strangers. Let me just share you my experience further.

He has a girlfriend and a girl best friend. It's just heartbreaking whenever I see them together, you know; 'though outside I look okay but deep inside, that really brings me down.

We used to be good friends before, once. Just once. That's why I was so touched when I read this: I didn't talk to him right away, trying to see if he would talk to me first. I waited...then he left without even saying hi. But I never know what it was that made him so against me and I won't bother on that, 'cause I'm still realise: well, who am I to him anyway? Even if he never know that I'm still have a crush him since the first time I meet him.

Pathetic much... yes? Hoping a hopeless expectation from a guy I secretly in love. I'm trying hard to forget this feeling and even I used to hate him very much so that I could stop thinking about him. But still... everytime we meet, it's like there's always something in him that made me stuck with him. It's just seem inevitable, you know; 'cause we're classmates. It just sucks much.

Now... I'm still struggling to get rid over him. Even if I feel like, it will be a long and painful times to go through.

[bloodycoke]

You know what I do? I laugh a bitter laugh, because it's probably amusing for the heavens to watch down seeing me chase a guy who's running away from me.

Hey, you know what's the best thing to do? Never care. It works every time, although, I may say, it's very difficult like Trig. :P