And the Wheels Just Keep Turning
So, I got up at 6 this morning. Not really feeling much so far this morning. Upset but what else is new. I don't feel I can share my emotions with anyone. It will just give them something to use against me in the future or scare them off. I've had plenty of people walk away from me so I would rather keep my feelings to myself. Besides, I'm just cut off half way in the middle of what I'm saying anyway. You know, sometimes it amazes me how oblivious I feel to my husband. Last night, Luke was over. The guys were eating their McDonalds. Who was the one that asked me to sit and made sure I was okay?! Luke. Who always makes sure I got out the door? Luke. It just frustrates me. I do not mind him doing that. It actually makes me feel important. Why doesn't my husband do that though? Why can't he put anyone above himself? Why can't he be an honest man and keep his promises. He is nothing but a liar and promises breaker. Yeah, and I'm suppose to believe him that he is going to quite drinking and change. Blah, blah, blah. You've said the same thing for 6 years now. He can't ever seem to get over himself and put his family first. I love him with all my heart but...what man can't put his wife and kids above himself?