Many Thoughts
Oh my god, its been soo long since I wrote in this journal, its amazing how fast time flies. Or in my friend Cal's words 'You can't escape time, but time can escape you.' Anyways..soo much has happened. We took Shadow back to the cayers. Mr. Cayor, or old guy in cowboy boots, hit my dad and then got sued by the state or whatever..we lost. The old geezer got away with it..that made me sooo mad. and they aren't allowing us to see Shadow ever again..we don't even know if she's being treated right. We took her there for a reason..in the winter, her feet were getting real bad and she needed a warm stall to survive the winter..Damn Them To Hell And Back!! Anyways...I started High School. It sucks. I have soo much trouble getting to my classes, and the classes are damn hard. I wouldn't be surprised if I failed a bunch of classes. We also have to have Gym. I don't have it yet, but I will soon..God, I don't want too. Lets see..Paul Lahar likes me as well. I'm not too sure about him. He is a nice boy and all, but..i'm not sure I want anything to do with a relationship right now. And I think I should have certain feelings about a guy before going out with them and I think of Paul as too much of a friend. He's not the kind of guy I can see myself holding hands with, crying with when I feel depressed, or when i'm terribly angry. I can't see myself kissing him either..well, i can't see myself kissing anyone. I still haven't yet..And I don't think I want too. But my mom seems to think he's a good boy to go out with and she always seems to be right. I just don't know..there's so many emotions all over this thing, it sucks. I have to work it out by myself..my head already hurts from all of the homework I have and now i just added another big load. Anyways, i'd better shut up now and think. Bye then.