This Week
This week has just been..screwed up. Completely screwed up, hardly a bit of happiness. Last Saturday night, Chris, Darrian, and Sean came over. That, was the only good thing of the week. I'd missed Chris, His voice, his jokes. It was nice to see him again, it kind of calmed me down a bit. I felt like nothing was going to go wrong that week. Wrong, way wrong. On Monday, everything was a bit tense, and then Tuesday, all hell broke lose. Corey, Brianne's boyfriend, threatened to kill himself. I didn't think he would, I thought he was just doing it for attention, I still don't know and I try not to get into it. Kim and Brianne got really depressed by it, especially Brianne. At first, I was mad at her, then worried. Real worried. She would start crying at the slightest hint of the word 'death'. She got angry at me, her and Kim, and we haven't been the same since. I knew our friendship wouldn't last, but I didn't think it'd end like this. I knew a boy would split us apart, but I thought he would by both of us liking him. Nope, instead, all the boy had to do was threaten to kill himself, and poof, broken friendship. That night, I talked to Corey about it, I was worried sick. I thought it was the right thing to do, apparently not. Brianne told me that it wasn't at recess the next day. I told her 'well, I thought it was the right thing to do.' she said 'no it wasn't.' so I said 'what was I supposed to do? Just let you break down every 5 minutes and cry all the time?' She told me 'yes, thats what you were supposed to do.' and then she left. What the fuck? I'm sorry I ever tried to be a friend, i'll never do that again. I know I shouldn't have talked to Corey, but I couldn't see her in that much pain without doing SOMETHING. She and Kim both called me heartless, because I told them that Corey probably wouldn't do anything, and that if he had trouble with his brother beating him up, that he should call social security. Maybe I am heartless, but i'm not going to change for anyone. No matter how angry, or miserable I am, I will not change who I am. I know I'll probably always be alone, with my personality, but hey, if thats the price I have to pay...Today, Chris and the guys were supposed to come over, but they ended up not being able too. That just dampered my week even more, I may not get to see them for a while. And I really needed a hug from Chris too..for once, a hug, and I don't get one. I hate life right now, everything is going utterly fucking wrong.