I Think If You Don't Get Too Intimate With Someone,There's Nothing To Miss, Right?
Kyle finally told me. March 15th, a tuesday at about 8:18. He told me he didn't like me anymore, that we were too different. We didn't have that much in common. I'm kinda happy, yet kinda sad. I knew he couldn't like me forever, but now, It hurts. No one's ever liked me like Kyle did. And i know he'll end up going out with someone within' a week. it'll hurt like hell, but thats ok. I'm used to pain. Hate it, but live with it. I doubt anyone's going to like me in a very long time now. I hate that feeling of knowing the worst is going to happen. I need a fucking councilor..I'm having so many coping problems. Mostly family and my sister. I don't even know why, i'm feeling really depressed and I get angry at the littlest things..more then I used to anyways. What the hell do I do? For the first time in my life, i need someone to hug, to cry with and there's no one there. No one. It hurts, like a burn that won't go away, tearing through flesh and heart before it kills, painful, and then releasing..when will that releasing part come? i hope soon..I can't live like this, in pain and unable to show it every day. Why do I have to be so afraid of human intimacy? Thats what kyle said 'I'm a touchy person, your not.' He's right, its me..I used to love it, but..now, I hate it. I just want the pain to end..