"Desperate I will crawl, waiting for so long. No Love, there is No Love!"
I feel bad. I just drove Brittany and Heather home.
I dunno... Like, this episode shit has lasted, what, two weeks now? I felt really depressed for the last two weeks,and now these last two days I've been really REALLY angry and irritable. I was mean to my mom this morning and I feel like such a bitch. I was just like pissed about everything and didn't want to hear anyone talk or whatever. I was just way too irritable and mad... It's crazy...
And Brittany was saying some stuff, I mean I know she's not trying to be mean and she actually explained why she said some stuff (I'm assuming she thought that might be why I was upset, and it's not really the whole reason, it just didn't help much). So, I mean, it's not either Heather or Brittany's fault or anything, I just didn't want to get in a worse mood...
I dunno... I just feel shitty, I can't even describe it well.
I apologized to my mom tonight for being such a bitch. She said she understands. She shouldn't have to...
Heather was trying to make me feel better and such. It did, but I mean... You know how stuff helps but it doesn't at the time? it was kind of like that...
Brittany's writing something to me on MySpace, I think. I feel bad because she's sick.
Brittany said she feels selfish because she wants to hang out but I feel so crappy. I told her she's not being selfish. Selfish would be me hanging out with them and ruining everything because I feel shitty.
Plus, my house embarasses me, and I hate it, and I get all agrivated and clauhstraphobic, and I don't want to be mean, but then I probably get REALLY mean and I don't want to be mean to two of my bestest buds... That'd blow.
Ugh...
I just don't want to take any more freaking medications... I'm done with Bipolar meds or depression meds or anxiety meds... I just can't do it anymore. Actually, I don't think I've been on anything for just my anxiety stuff... I dunno, I thought about it, but meds are awful... I just hate them. I'm pretty convinced nothing will work, ever.
Quote : "You're a junior, Kat'? Dude, I thought you were a senior last year!" - Shaun Quilty... Yeah, THANKS Shaun! >.< :D
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I dunno... Like, this episode shit has lasted, what, two weeks now? I felt really depressed for the last two weeks,and now these last two days I've been really REALLY angry and irritable. I was mean to my mom this morning and I feel like such a bitch. I was just like pissed about everything and didn't want to hear anyone talk or whatever. I was just way too irritable and mad... It's crazy...
And Brittany was saying some stuff, I mean I know she's not trying to be mean and she actually explained why she said some stuff (I'm assuming she thought that might be why I was upset, and it's not really the whole reason, it just didn't help much). So, I mean, it's not either Heather or Brittany's fault or anything, I just didn't want to get in a worse mood...
I dunno... I just feel shitty, I can't even describe it well.
I apologized to my mom tonight for being such a bitch. She said she understands. She shouldn't have to...
Heather was trying to make me feel better and such. It did, but I mean... You know how stuff helps but it doesn't at the time? it was kind of like that...
Brittany's writing something to me on MySpace, I think. I feel bad because she's sick.
Brittany said she feels selfish because she wants to hang out but I feel so crappy. I told her she's not being selfish. Selfish would be me hanging out with them and ruining everything because I feel shitty.
Plus, my house embarasses me, and I hate it, and I get all agrivated and clauhstraphobic, and I don't want to be mean, but then I probably get REALLY mean and I don't want to be mean to two of my bestest buds... That'd blow.
Ugh...
I just don't want to take any more freaking medications... I'm done with Bipolar meds or depression meds or anxiety meds... I just can't do it anymore. Actually, I don't think I've been on anything for just my anxiety stuff... I dunno, I thought about it, but meds are awful... I just hate them. I'm pretty convinced nothing will work, ever.
Quote : "You're a junior, Kat'? Dude, I thought you were a senior last year!" - Shaun Quilty... Yeah, THANKS Shaun! >.< :D
♥