"Look what Love gave us, a World Full of Killing abd Blood Spilling..."
My tummy hurts... I feel like such a fat ass. I mean, I AM a fat ass, but I feel worse, now. I saw Kacey Jane's pictures on MySpace. Eight months after giving burth and she's skinny as a fucking twig, again, no joke. I think she still might have an eating disorder... I don't know, I just know she use to. I wonder if she still SI's.
Anyways...
So... I think Robert's a hottie, right? BlahBlahBlah, I said all this. I'm pretty infatuated with him.
But, I am with Talent, too. I mean, he's really cute, and he's nice. He's FUNNY. And he lives with a bunch of women and is great with his older sister, so you know he'll know how to treat a girl.
Robert seems like the kind of person that once he was with someone he totally could do no wrong. If he really liked them he'd treat them like they were the only one, you know? He just seems that way.
I have this little infatuation with them both... I don't really know what to do. I might try flirting with both of them to see if either is interested, if not - well it's not the end of the world, I'll just let it go and be friends, ya' know?
But... Heather said something that kind of bugged me, today. We were all talking, and I said something about Robert and Talent. She said something like "You say I'M bad" or "You're just like me, arn't you?!" - Uhm, she just cheated on her new boyfriend. This is like... the second or third guy she's cheated on, that I know of. I was like "Uhm, yeah, except that I didn't cheat on my boyfriend and I'm not with either of these guys" nor am I doing anything with either other than talking, and it's not like we're even best buds or any of that stuff.
She got kind of mad and was like "Shut up, I know!". Well... then you shouldn't say anything like that to me. And, no, I don't think you do know because if you really did, and you really GOT it you wouldn't DO IT.
I dunno, it bugged me.
Don't get me wrong, Heather is my bestest bud', but it bugs me some of the things she does. Just like I know some stupid shit I do bugs her.
But... Yeah... Anywho...
Brittany's really tired. She basically got here, said some stuff, played with my pup, and when I came down from feeding the horses (I told her she might not want to come since she's feeling sick from the coffee and vomitting) she was passed out. We were only up there for maybe fifteen minutes.
It's good she's sleeping. It's been a really hard day - Hell, it's been a really hard couple of weeks. I think I'm just gonna tell her she can sleep in my bed tonight, and if she doesn't want to then she's fine sleeping out with Heather and I on the couches, or we can all sleep in my brother's huge bed if he doesn't come home. I personally don't care much.
They don't know, still, what Michellie died from. And they won't. She didn't want an autopsy, and she's been creamated. So... Yeah. It kind of bugged Bruno that there wasn't one, I mean... she wants to know how/why she died, I do too, sort of. But it's what Michellie wanted, or didn't - for that matter. I thought they HAD to do autopsies... especially if the person died from something they don't know... I guess not.
Dude, Jason's still hitting on me... And it's getting like... bad. He's got it BAD for me. It's weird. I hope he snaps out of it. He like... tried to tell me he loved me and I'm just like "Jason, NO you do NOT. You don't even know me, you can't love what you don't know - that means you just love ignorance." Yeah... it's weird. He needs to snap out of it and chill. And now he's like... telling me he likes to be close to me and what-not (I asked him to stop touching me because it makes me uncomfortable and what-not, like I feel sick. It's not really him, it's me, and I'm not trying to be mean). I asked him if he was pulling one if his Matt-impersonations like he loves to do, and he's like "Actually, no."
He needs to step back and analyze his infatuation...
Weird.
Quote: "Michelle would think it's hilarious that we're late to her funeral..." - Me.
"Ha! Yeah, she would." - Michelle (The other one, Mimi's GF)
♥
Anyways...
So... I think Robert's a hottie, right? BlahBlahBlah, I said all this. I'm pretty infatuated with him.
But, I am with Talent, too. I mean, he's really cute, and he's nice. He's FUNNY. And he lives with a bunch of women and is great with his older sister, so you know he'll know how to treat a girl.
Robert seems like the kind of person that once he was with someone he totally could do no wrong. If he really liked them he'd treat them like they were the only one, you know? He just seems that way.
I have this little infatuation with them both... I don't really know what to do. I might try flirting with both of them to see if either is interested, if not - well it's not the end of the world, I'll just let it go and be friends, ya' know?
But... Heather said something that kind of bugged me, today. We were all talking, and I said something about Robert and Talent. She said something like "You say I'M bad" or "You're just like me, arn't you?!" - Uhm, she just cheated on her new boyfriend. This is like... the second or third guy she's cheated on, that I know of. I was like "Uhm, yeah, except that I didn't cheat on my boyfriend and I'm not with either of these guys" nor am I doing anything with either other than talking, and it's not like we're even best buds or any of that stuff.
She got kind of mad and was like "Shut up, I know!". Well... then you shouldn't say anything like that to me. And, no, I don't think you do know because if you really did, and you really GOT it you wouldn't DO IT.
I dunno, it bugged me.
Don't get me wrong, Heather is my bestest bud', but it bugs me some of the things she does. Just like I know some stupid shit I do bugs her.
But... Yeah... Anywho...
Brittany's really tired. She basically got here, said some stuff, played with my pup, and when I came down from feeding the horses (I told her she might not want to come since she's feeling sick from the coffee and vomitting) she was passed out. We were only up there for maybe fifteen minutes.
It's good she's sleeping. It's been a really hard day - Hell, it's been a really hard couple of weeks. I think I'm just gonna tell her she can sleep in my bed tonight, and if she doesn't want to then she's fine sleeping out with Heather and I on the couches, or we can all sleep in my brother's huge bed if he doesn't come home. I personally don't care much.
They don't know, still, what Michellie died from. And they won't. She didn't want an autopsy, and she's been creamated. So... Yeah. It kind of bugged Bruno that there wasn't one, I mean... she wants to know how/why she died, I do too, sort of. But it's what Michellie wanted, or didn't - for that matter. I thought they HAD to do autopsies... especially if the person died from something they don't know... I guess not.
Dude, Jason's still hitting on me... And it's getting like... bad. He's got it BAD for me. It's weird. I hope he snaps out of it. He like... tried to tell me he loved me and I'm just like "Jason, NO you do NOT. You don't even know me, you can't love what you don't know - that means you just love ignorance." Yeah... it's weird. He needs to snap out of it and chill. And now he's like... telling me he likes to be close to me and what-not (I asked him to stop touching me because it makes me uncomfortable and what-not, like I feel sick. It's not really him, it's me, and I'm not trying to be mean). I asked him if he was pulling one if his Matt-impersonations like he loves to do, and he's like "Actually, no."
He needs to step back and analyze his infatuation...
Weird.
Quote: "Michelle would think it's hilarious that we're late to her funeral..." - Me.
"Ha! Yeah, she would." - Michelle (The other one, Mimi's GF)
♥