BRUISES ARE BACK IN STYLE
i just got home from school. today was a bore. like every other day. nothing happened worth talking about. but nothing bad has happened so far either. so it levels out to.. normal. This month could suck soo badly... but it also could be the greatest!! it all depends on what takes place in the next week or two. Next saturday is Valentine's Day. My month will be summed up all in that one day. I might just end up doing nothing at all, on the most "happiest" days of the year. or my love life could take a sharp turn and end up evolving into... something. that could be great. no pressure tho, and no hoplessness. but i must say i would totally be disappointed if i ended up doing nothing, or on the computer, for Valentine's Day. lol. sigh. i love, ..love. lol. (hopeless romantic) so tomorrow... im off to Alex's after school.. looking like shit... like i just got out of school. blech.? so we'll see how that goes. i'll update how that went.. tomorrow. sigh, i want to kiss someone for some reason. i miss kisses. theyre nice. hehe. umm. well, i hope all stays well tonite. ohh shit... well i talked to Josh last nite, online. i dont know why. but IMed him after so long. im so brave! hah. ya we chit-chatted for like 5 minutes. about me! and about what I was up to.. i didnt really care to hear about what he was up to. he asked if i was "seeing/talking" to anyone. even tho he already knew. anyway. it was awkward i guess. cuz we're not friends, and we dont like eachother at all like that anymore. i think i IMed him mainly to prove to myself I am able to talk to him w/o crying. and i did it! and to prove to him that im over him.-- and i am. sigh im kinda proud of myself. but after that 5 second conversation, i found it pointless to talk to him at all. i mean, ya, im over him, but shit, we dont need to know much at all about eachother's lives. and we could never become friends- so whatever. he has changed a lot... i can tell... since "we" were something. and i realized that i dont miss him at all, not the way he is now. its quite .. weird. oh well. im glad im not in need of him anymore. i am moving on. just, at a slow pace. heh. oh well. Alex and i are "friends... that like eachother" one day.. more ::fingers crossed:: hehe. i cant wait to see him... or talk to him!!