oh god

[bloodsonfire]

i gaze down at my wrist
with such relief and lust
i see the red fountain dripping down
and i can't believe what i have done
i never thought that this would be me
dark, alone, in such misery
i feel great and like shit all at the same time,
longing for happiness to some day be mine
my eyes begin to water
how did this happen?
the intricate lines turn to blurrs
i think im snapping
it all turns to a vast blurr of nothing
my pain, alas, feels numbed
but along with it is everything else
nasieu takes over me
i dont need help
i sit myself down and my vision comes fast
and the bleeding stops and im here again
i can never take these scars back
they will forever be mine,
my red fountain