whisked insanity
I am trying to not go off the deep end without Dan around. I miss him so much. The whole working out of town thing has proven to be a lot more difficult than I thought. And I was wanting to go with him on his next trip out but I don't know if work commitments will be allowing that. Which means after not seeing him for a month there is a great possibility that I will get to see him for 2 days. FAN-FUCKING-TASTIC!!!
In my head when we started all of this I didn't think of the what if I wouldn't be able to go out on the road with him now and then. No one does think of the bad parts when you are falling for someone. Now I am being gazed right in the face by the clear and evident fact that I may only see my boyfriend 2 days in a matter of 2 month. I can't handle that. This is not what I intended to sign up for. I have needs... and I am not just talking about sex here... I need someone there for me, I am tired of being single. Right now I just still feel single, I just can't date now... lemme tell you that's fun (do we sense the sarcasm?)
OHHH and to top it all off, fate or karma or god or some asshole has decided to make nearly every guy who I have dated in the past ...oh I dunno... year contact me in some way or another. That is some fucked up shit right there. STOP THAT YOU, YOU, YOU... WHOEVER YOU ARE! But I'm torn... I really think Dan is amazing (better than all those schmucks I have dated)... I have fallen for him hard... I enjoy his company (when I get it) so much and I can see being with him for a really long time, if circumstances were slightly different. I'm not sure what to do...
In my head when we started all of this I didn't think of the what if I wouldn't be able to go out on the road with him now and then. No one does think of the bad parts when you are falling for someone. Now I am being gazed right in the face by the clear and evident fact that I may only see my boyfriend 2 days in a matter of 2 month. I can't handle that. This is not what I intended to sign up for. I have needs... and I am not just talking about sex here... I need someone there for me, I am tired of being single. Right now I just still feel single, I just can't date now... lemme tell you that's fun (do we sense the sarcasm?)
OHHH and to top it all off, fate or karma or god or some asshole has decided to make nearly every guy who I have dated in the past ...oh I dunno... year contact me in some way or another. That is some fucked up shit right there. STOP THAT YOU, YOU, YOU... WHOEVER YOU ARE! But I'm torn... I really think Dan is amazing (better than all those schmucks I have dated)... I have fallen for him hard... I enjoy his company (when I get it) so much and I can see being with him for a really long time, if circumstances were slightly different. I'm not sure what to do...